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Old 05-05-2007, 06:39 PM
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No. not at all
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Old 05-05-2007, 06:40 PM
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But you know dreaming makes it easier to not worry about his whining and Im sure itll amke it easier to turn him away
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Old 05-05-2007, 06:45 PM
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Now I really need to clean my aquariums, but I still dont want to
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Old 05-05-2007, 06:47 PM
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seem like if they are gonna do all of that seems like it would be a whole lot easier if they can think things through before they make those wrong choices, but i guess you have to give credit to the doc for some of it, expecially when they don't realize the hold it has on their lives.

gosh, believe it or not, my kids are getting alone, i'm in my room and they are watching tv together and laughing together too. i think maybe things are getting a little less tense around here for them too. when dads here, they seem to stay in their room sometimes a little more than when he's gone. gosh, i hope thats not the case. maybe they just feel like being around each other.
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Old 05-05-2007, 06:51 PM
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But you know dreaming makes it easier to not worry about his whining and Im sure itll amke it easier to turn him away
don't you just hate that part, thats why in the past, i would have no contact until i could talk to him and it not bother me so much just in case he started all of that whinning or talking relationship talk. i think i cave too quick if i try to do it any other way. you are a strong one cinder
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Old 05-05-2007, 06:52 PM
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cinder, I agree with Teke... my abf isn't the type to steal never did steal from me but working or not working he is always able to get money to get high.
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Old 05-05-2007, 06:56 PM
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Jewelz, I think that is why this blast from my past man is so appealing. IN 2 years he's ahd 9 surgeries due to a bike accident and he doesnt like pain meds because they interfere with who he is
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Old 05-05-2007, 06:59 PM
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I did decide not to go shrimping with this guy or see him in person at all right now
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Old 05-05-2007, 07:10 PM
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Teke, how did you enforce the no contact?
Not answer any calls, and pretend your not home if he appears?

I answer calls so he wont appear
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Old 05-05-2007, 07:29 PM
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cinder, yrs ago, i set a boundary that i suggest that he called before he just popped up, that he couldn't come and if he came anyway then i would call the police, of course he didn't believe me and i had to prove that i meant what i said and called the police, he was arrested a few times, and after that, when he went out on a binge or whatever, he'd call before he came and if i didn't answer i guess he remembered that he just couldn't pop up. he didn't know if i would let him in or call the police so he'd wait until he could talk to me first.

since then, if he did call and i don't answer, he'd just know to keep callling or to leave me alone for a while then maybe months later he would try again, and if i want to talk i did and if i didn't i didn't. i guess you have to say what you mean and follow though on the consequences.
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Old 05-05-2007, 07:32 PM
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Is it normal to feel so mixed up and hacve such mixed feelings?
I just want a "normal"life with a nice husband whose my best friend all the time, not when its convenient
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Old 05-05-2007, 07:38 PM
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i want that too cinder but unfortuantely when living with an off and on active addict, this is about the best it gets but it does get a lot worse, if you choose to let it, take it from me.
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Old 05-05-2007, 07:49 PM
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Honestly I think Im at the point that it has to get better or its over. Tonite I was saying prayers with the kids and I said "Help us be strong to not let Daddy come back until the time is right and after my 9 year old said, What, NO, hes not coming into my house until he's clean a year and the 5 year old pipes up, and will not steal from us anymore.

Its time to listen to my kids
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Old 05-05-2007, 07:53 PM
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i know cinder, it gets even more painful when you hear the kids say things like that, i've heard mine say stuff too. if only dad could recognize how everyone is being effected, i'm sorry. my heart breaks when i hear my kids say stuff like that, but i do believe that they will be ok as long as you're ok. stay strong, i don't think he's finished yet so be prepared
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Cindi, that just broke my heart. I am so sorry for your childrens pain. I will pray for your little ones that they find peace.

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Old 05-05-2007, 07:57 PM
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Yeah he's not finished. My gut says its about to get crazy rough
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Old 05-05-2007, 07:58 PM
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cinderella, teke...

that is just the saddest thing i've heard - i'm feeling melancholy - read about the 16 year old that passed away - my brother in law was really involved in NA in illinois for a long time and we were talking while we were in michigan - he said he's been to way more funerals for young people than old - addiction is a cruel thing - i just wish it wasn't an issue for any of us - the poor kids...

well i just wanted to say hi - let you know i've been reading up on all of you - love all the pics - love all of you - thanks for being here...

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Old 05-05-2007, 07:59 PM
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You know I get that my kids are okay when they arent worried. My 9 year old has been so sweet. I think they are torn but they have a little more reasoning on there side and they know its better when hes gone.

The 9 year said I want to see facts I dont want to chance anything
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Old 05-05-2007, 08:43 PM
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Wow you guys awesome pics of the pets. Teke, loved the fam, & wow you are georgous!! And your daughter with those huge brown eyes wow, what a cutie.
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Old 05-05-2007, 08:45 PM
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i think thats my grandbaby youre talking about helpus, thanks
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