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Old 04-06-2007, 05:15 PM
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To all those spending Friday night alone

Know you are not alone.
I too sit here another Friday night. Crack once again had more of an allure than I did.
This lifes not fair, yet Im the only one who can change it. I wish I could go forward without again falling backwards, letting him back in and hitting the repeat button.

Its time to start controlling my own destiny, I just have to figure out how.
We all deserve better.
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:24 PM
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Hey girl.. you are SOOOO right.
I got out of work early today. Did a bunch of stuff and just finished cleaning the downstairs (company for Easter dinner).

I am so happy sitting here. If I get lonely I got all of you to talk to.

So... I am just prattling on here CWK.. just letting you know that I am listening and keeping busy.

You know you are the only one who can get off the roller coaster. The more times you go up the harder it is (and more sickening) going down.
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:26 PM
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Grab the kids and go to Micky Ds! Get out and live!


I am sorry you are hurting... I really am. I can't imagine how difficult this is for all of you. I hope you can find a way to minimize the pain and maximize the joy in life today.

(((Cinda)))
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:30 PM
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Sadly it hasnt gotten to me this awful in a bit. Last week I was upset but that was about me.
Tonite I just know I dont want to live like this. I left last year when he did this, 4 months ago and stupid me let him back in again. The up and down is killing me.
I know what he's doing is not personal, but it hurts just the same.
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:32 PM
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I had to promise my boss, when he drove me home, that Id go to an alanon meeting next week at lunch. Thats where I start
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:33 PM
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:37 PM
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We ordered pizza big sis, even got a cinnamony desert that came with it.

YUMMMYY
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Pizza!??? Dang.. I will be right down!
Been wanting to see the fish tanks anyway!
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I cant control him but I can control my life, hmmmm
....now how do I do that? That is what I have to figure out
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Darn Elana, I only wish you could.
Id invite eveeryone over. I maanaged to get $300 from him earlier that would buy a lot of pizza.
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:42 PM
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hugs to u and the kids,,,
be strong and i hope life will get better!!
and ur so brace lol enjoy your pizza!Q!!
lol if i was there close to u lol we coulod have kids pizza naights together when were alone lol....
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I feel sorta silly, Ive been going through this so long, it shouldnt bother me so much anymore. I just keep on believing...
...guess I shouldnt ahve read so many fairy tales
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:48 PM
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Hi Cinder - Holidays are the worst arn't they. My AD called the other day and wants to do something but me just a baby in my "codie" life am not wanting to celebrate with her this year - but I keep telling myself that it could be the last year - I've said "Prepare for the worst hope for the best" so often I can feel the fear rumbling. Could 70% Dark Chocolate help us even if it's not Bunny shape? Sending ((HUGS)) Cinder.
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:50 PM
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I have been trying to keep this light but I understand. I really do.

how? Well, for me it took getting really really angry and cutting off all contact 100%. Hosever, I don't have children and I was not married to him and his behavior left me feeling violated.. I never have felt anger like that.

Then I turned it all over to my HP. This does not mean I have to accept what he did. It just means his behavior it isn't mine anymore.

Just take care of you. Make sure you keep yourself safe and the finances out of his hands. and, believe me, if I lived closer I would come on over for Pizza but only if you came over and taught your kids the magic of the dark room.

You are not on an easy path or in an easy place. Hitting the repeat button would drive me up the wall. Stay safe.
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:53 PM
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hugs cinder, i am coming for pizza...
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:53 PM
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(((Cinder)))
Hey, we just ordered pizza too!!!!!

Maybe it's a Friday night codie thing???

You are not alone. We are al in this boat together and we will not drown! I think we have enough life boats here at SR to help us all.

Thank God for SR

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Dark chocolate always helps Brownie.

Well all for tonite Ill give you a visual. Im all comfie in my sweats now. The weather here in the sunshine state is on the chilly side I think they said low was 40, I think thats a record. Earlier today it was warmer iin Seattle than here.

Im filling up on pizza. Ice cream is next, and looking for a fruity smelling candle

Elana, you mention my fish tanks, almost makes me want to go clean my 55, I should my lights burnt out poor fishies, I just dont ahve maintenance in me tonite. Id rather sit here and type. My oldest son is next door (He haas a crush on the girl who lives there) My other 2 are watching Dora.
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:58 PM
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Elana,
The kids are the hardest part. He is so cute with the little one who loves him so, it breaks my heart to think of him not having him here, and it breaks my heart o thing he could be away for a weekend with him somewhere else.
They say keep your enemies closer....
Have hope, you ordered pizza too. It always helps the kids on nights like these. If I had batteries going Ig get my web cam on and it could be like eveeryone was here, but no batteries. bOOOHOO
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Old 04-06-2007, 05:59 PM
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hugs cinder, i am coming for pizza...

Hurry only 2 pieces left
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Old 04-06-2007, 06:04 PM
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((((cindy))))

The kids are always the biggest heartbreak but they will be fine. You love them and you understand and they will adapt. YOU will do what you NEED to do when you NEED to do it! You will realize that your time has come and I think you are near.

It's never easy to change things; change can be good but it can be scary too. But when you weigh what it is now, you know you can endure so much more than you realize!

You go girl. When "enough is enough" you will find that inner strength that you have inside you! We are all here for you.

Love ya!

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