greeneyedgirl

I don't know why I feel so lost and lonely without my AH...........it was lost and Lonely with him. I guess I just miss knowing he was there.

kj21

I am like you, I miss my ABF when he is not here. I love him and our life when he is not using. I miss it all!!!!

cece1960

I spend many holidays alone, and I've gotten to enjoy it.
I think its the difference of being my choice rather than feeling abandoned.
Or, maybe the fact that I have kids allows me to demand a family holiday if I would choose to...which I don't.

Perhaps, just for now you could convince yourself that the holiday is YOUR day apart form the chaos from others. And that you choose to spend some time with yourself.

It worked for me for a while, until I began to look forward to the quiet day.

Prayers your weekend is a bright one...
((((hugs))))
Cece

lil516

Holidays can be painful...most are not Norman Rockwell pictures...

I hope you can plan something a little special for yourself...

maybe a service at a local church...
a movie or perhaps let some friends/family know you're feeling a little lonely and they may encourage you to join their celebration

whatever you do decide on , remember it's just a day
try not to give it too much importance

lilkim

I understand I'm sitting here lonely and bored. My ex is out there with his addict friends getting screwed up and screwed. Doesn't seem fair, huh?

Wascally Wabbit

It's seperation anxiety. It happens to children and adults.
It gets better though. Find some things that you can do by yourself, like a hobby. I took up painting, and I get lost in it, forgetting everything even time itself. It's a wonderful hobby. Gardening is too. Plus, it's a great time to start! Photography is wonderful too.
You need something you can call your own!

hopeforever

hugs to u,,, i know how it is

go and enjoy your day do something extra speciall to enjoy this day.. and concentrate on good things..
hugs to you

hope213

i agree on the church thing.our church has 4 services easter,begining with sunrise the then regular 8:30,9:45& 11 am services. after chrcu your could go get lunch or maybe ask a friend to join you. i do wish you a happy easter.

nogard

here is a big hug (((((GEG))))). Keep busy, try being down when your busy Get out and do stuff or go for walks. I used to sit in front of the TV and .... poor me poor me pour me another one .... haven't watched TV for 9 months.

Life is here right now lets grab it.

Kevin

oneeyeopen

YUP, it was supposed to be good times for the weekend with the abf. He was going to be here to help me with my visiting nephew, who, together with my son can be a handful, he was going to help me work on some practical stuff, and then sunday we were all going to go to his mom's for the big easter thing,,

But, this was a week with two coke nights (after 7 weeks clean) and him getting nastier than ever and telling me that our relationship is over because I won't lend him money...

Just love it, don't ya?

At this point I just figure "whatever" and get on with it. I have a pile of dvds to watch, and ice cream, and lots of people to call to catch up with. since I don't need to spend time on the phone with him I can spend time on the phone with friends.

Keep up the good cheer!!!!!

remember--spring, the season of rebirth and renewal!

teke

sorry that you are lonely this holiday, i remember more holidays without my husband than with, kind of got use to it too. what worked for me though, all those times that i really missed him, i'd ask me a few questions. i asked myself what was i missing, and what would be happening if he was home. those thought helped me through a lot, i pray that things work out soon,

hopalong

I miss him terribly, and then when I'm with him dealing with his crap, I wonder why? I can only suggest that you keep yourself as busy as possible. I've started going to church, joined a volleyball team, joined a couple of fundraising teams and am studying for the CPA. For me nighttimes are worse! I just take one day at a time and pray that god will lead me to where I need to be!

Hang in there!