I just want to say....
Just plainly tired
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Join Date: Nov 2004
Location: crossroads
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I just want to say....
I miss my boyfriend. Yes I see him everyday. But I miss the boyfriend/husband who is not in active addiction. I've been okay but at this moment my heart aches.
Jewel
Jewel
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Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: BFE
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Jewelz...
I miss my ex-ABF too. Some of it was real... most of it is gone now... almost all of it I never really had anyway, and just invented. But at the time, it was very real... and the picture that I painted is still real too. I really, really miss it. But I'm also really, really trying to paint a new picture - one that's more accurate and much more beautiful, because truth is probably the most beautiful thing I can think of right now.
I really, really, really hate that you are going through this.
HUGS tonight.
I miss my ex-ABF too. Some of it was real... most of it is gone now... almost all of it I never really had anyway, and just invented. But at the time, it was very real... and the picture that I painted is still real too. I really, really miss it. But I'm also really, really trying to paint a new picture - one that's more accurate and much more beautiful, because truth is probably the most beautiful thing I can think of right now.
I really, really, really hate that you are going through this.
HUGS tonight.
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: hazel park, michigan
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My heart goes out to you tonight. It's hard to be the person behind the user. I felt that feeling so many nights. We long for what once was and wonder if it ever will be again. Keep on keeping on...that's what gets us through, that and the love and support we find in our loved ones and friends, especially here. I will be holding you near to my heart tonight.
I'm no angel!
Join Date: May 2005
Location: tampa, fl
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I found it hard to accept that although my ex-abf was physically with me, he was gone. Drugs had taken him from me. I mourned the loss and when I was ready, I let him go, physically. You are committed to staying with him, so, you might have to re-align your thinking, accept him, embrace the moments of clarity and go about your business.
Be kind to yourself today, do something special for your and your children this weekend.
Hugs,
Dolly
Be kind to yourself today, do something special for your and your children this weekend.
Hugs,
Dolly
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Join Date: Feb 2006
Location: East Tawas, MI
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(((Jewelz))) I know that feeling and I do believe it is a way to mourn. When I see my daughter, she is not there, she has been replaced by the addict. Even when she is with me I know that her mind is elsewhere. It is hard, but time will make things, if not better, than hopefully easier. Hugs, Marle
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Philadelphia
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Jewel-
I know where you are at.
I am here too. It is lonely and very sad. I keep praying to God to make it better. You are in my thoughts.
We will all help each other get through this. Feel free to PM me anytime.
I know where you are at.
I am here too. It is lonely and very sad. I keep praying to God to make it better. You are in my thoughts.
We will all help each other get through this. Feel free to PM me anytime.
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Join Date: Oct 2006
Location: TX
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I miss mine, too. My mind tells me to go on with my life, but for now, it's still a struggle to get up and carry on with everyday activities. Mine has now been gone for over two weeks. He left everything here. He doesn't seem to need anything he has left behind. For whatever reason he doesn't see fit to call, I am sure his thoughts are primarily on getting his next hit. Life goes on. Somehow, we have to pick up the pieces.
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Join Date: Apr 2005
Location: home sweet home
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I too, understand, and send hugs your way. I have grieved many parts to my relationship, and now I know I was in love with the person I thought he was...not the person he has shown. Just know that your higher power has something so much bigger and brighter waiting for you down the road.
Mendingheart
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Join Date: Jan 2007
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I was so dang mad at my ex when I divorced him. I loved him completely, adored him.......but he left me for alcohol. Remember that song "Whiskey, if you were a woman?" It was a country song. Probably still is....LOL
It took me a long time to get over that, but I knew that the man I loved wasn't coming back any time soon. I know you aren't divorcing or leaving your guy, Jewelz, and I didn't mean to suggest that is what you should do. I was just identifying with that feeling. It is a sense of grief, and I feel for you. I wish you peace right now.
((((Hugs))))
It took me a long time to get over that, but I knew that the man I loved wasn't coming back any time soon. I know you aren't divorcing or leaving your guy, Jewelz, and I didn't mean to suggest that is what you should do. I was just identifying with that feeling. It is a sense of grief, and I feel for you. I wish you peace right now.
((((Hugs))))
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