patchoulli

Drove 50 miles for a sunday meeting. I needed it. Been feeling terribly guilty for not being patient enough, calling him a bum, lazy, berating him for not paying his share and for the fact that we had no money for fun things anymore, if we went anywhere, I had to pay, all of the if only's...and nights are lonely here. I am glad I went, I didn't talk, just listened, and some people talked about how they apologized to graves because the people were gone. I feel o.k. about that part, he was in a coma but I kissed him, and told him I love him, asked him to forgive me, and told him I forgave him. A woman came up to me at the end of the meeting and asked if I were a newbie, I explained that I was not, but there were no sunday meetings near me so I drove, and I told her that we had just had a loss. I told her that Keith had died after being in a coma, She understood, she told me her son is dying now, and she can't stop him, and thats why she goes to meetings. It is nice to go to a place where you don't have to explain everything to death, they all understand....

abtchonamission

I'm glad you had a good meeting...I still say a prayer for Keith, that's he's found peace finally. Sounds like you've found yours.

Brownie

(((((HUGS)))) to you patchoulli - just said a prayer for you.

Hangin' In

((((((((patch))))))))))

I'm so glad you found a good meeting. I, too, find comfort at my meetings. It's so nice to have a place to go where people understand.

Big, comforting hugs to you, Patch. I'm glad you took care of yourself today.

Hangin' In

greeteachday

Patch, I too am glad you found a meeting. There are other grief therapy groups, but I personally just fidn the connection at my meetings to be what I need. As you said, people understand and there isn't a need to have to try to explain. Hugs and prayers.

tropikgal2

Patch, glad you were comfortable at the meeting. Sounds like the drive was worth it. Hugs!!