OMG he called
Minx- I know Judy is right. He IS good. But as I've always said- I was so vague and unclear the first time I said this year thing and that was because I was saying and doing something I didn't feel ready for, but I was listening to other people who were trying to guide me. So I still intend not to talk to him after Friday, once I get the opportunity to phrase what I want to say clearly. But I'm going to keep going to meetings. I don't have a sponsor, no one ever mentioned it to me, they told me I have time...
Judy- no, it doesn't bother me THAT much that he violated that boundary because it's proven that he never took my word seriously before all the other times I broke up with him because he always got me back, so why would he have all of a sudden started taking me seriously this time? This is what they do, right? He thought this detox thing would be enough to get me happy, to forgive what he had done in the past, and this is him giving it a shot. I knew something like this was coming... But I guarantee he won't win! I know what he's doing and Friday's conversation will be 5 mins long, I will say my piece, and that will be it for 6 mos. No matter what catastrophy befalls him during that time...
My problem is my work phone, there is no caller ID.
pmaslan- if he had called and there wasn't this detox thing, I wouldn't have agreed to talk to him again... this just thre me off guard, I guess, and I need to make clear that this isn't a quick fix.
The bottom line you are all trying to tell me is that he's already gotten me to re-engage. And that's bad. But really, I don't feel any differently, I know what I have to do and intend to do it, I just want to do it in a way that I feel comfortable with my actions and therefore really let go of him for the next months.
Judy- no, it doesn't bother me THAT much that he violated that boundary because it's proven that he never took my word seriously before all the other times I broke up with him because he always got me back, so why would he have all of a sudden started taking me seriously this time? This is what they do, right? He thought this detox thing would be enough to get me happy, to forgive what he had done in the past, and this is him giving it a shot. I knew something like this was coming... But I guarantee he won't win! I know what he's doing and Friday's conversation will be 5 mins long, I will say my piece, and that will be it for 6 mos. No matter what catastrophy befalls him during that time...
My problem is my work phone, there is no caller ID.
pmaslan- if he had called and there wasn't this detox thing, I wouldn't have agreed to talk to him again... this just thre me off guard, I guess, and I need to make clear that this isn't a quick fix.
The bottom line you are all trying to tell me is that he's already gotten me to re-engage. And that's bad. But really, I don't feel any differently, I know what I have to do and intend to do it, I just want to do it in a way that I feel comfortable with my actions and therefore really let go of him for the next months.
deax, one last thing from me and I'll stay out of this.
How many times are you going to give him to take you seriously? I can't even take you seriously, because once again you are not following through with your own boundary, a boundary you set up. You are validating it by saying "I just didn't think I was clear" .... I mean how can you not be clear saying "Don't call me for a year". I mean that isn't difficult to understand is it? What didn't you make clear.
deax, regardless of what you think, your boundary was clear, there is no reason to speak to him again unless you WANT to. If you WANT to speak him again, then just say so. Don't manipulate it to us under the guise of "making my boundary clear". It is clear. We've all played the game, we've all danced the dance, we all understand. What is frustrating to me is reading your manipulation here to us.
Judy- no, it doesn't bother me THAT much that he violated that boundary because it's proven that he never took my word seriously before all the other times I broke up with him because he always got me back, so why would he have all of a sudden started taking me seriously this time?
deax, regardless of what you think, your boundary was clear, there is no reason to speak to him again unless you WANT to. If you WANT to speak him again, then just say so. Don't manipulate it to us under the guise of "making my boundary clear". It is clear. We've all played the game, we've all danced the dance, we all understand. What is frustrating to me is reading your manipulation here to us.
Originally Posted by ASpouse
deax, one last thing from me and I'll stay out of this.
How many times are you going to give him to take you seriously? I can't even take you seriously, because once again you are not following through with your own boundary, a boundary you set up. You are validating it by saying "I just didn't think I was clear" .... I mean how can you not be clear saying "Don't call me for a year". I mean that isn't difficult to understand is it? What didn't you make clear.
deax, regardless of what you think, your boundary was clear, there is no reason to speak to him again unless you WANT to. If you WANT to speak him again, then just say so. Don't manipulate it to us under the guise of "making my boundary clear". It is clear. We've all played the game, we've all danced the dance, we all understand. What is frustrating to me is reading your manipulation here to us.
How many times are you going to give him to take you seriously? I can't even take you seriously, because once again you are not following through with your own boundary, a boundary you set up. You are validating it by saying "I just didn't think I was clear" .... I mean how can you not be clear saying "Don't call me for a year". I mean that isn't difficult to understand is it? What didn't you make clear.
deax, regardless of what you think, your boundary was clear, there is no reason to speak to him again unless you WANT to. If you WANT to speak him again, then just say so. Don't manipulate it to us under the guise of "making my boundary clear". It is clear. We've all played the game, we've all danced the dance, we all understand. What is frustrating to me is reading your manipulation here to us.
Originally Posted by minnie
Don't forget, you can't set a boundary and simultaneously save someone else's feelings.
OK, that's fair. I wish you the best of luck with your situation.
Usually recovery is not something that feels right for us, it's a very uncomfortable, very unnatural feeling. It's when that discomfort starts to feel comfortable that we know we are on the road to recovery. Recovery is thinking out of the box, recovery is loving ourselves more than others, recovery is taking care of ourselves first then the rest our lives follow.
Usually recovery is not something that feels right for us, it's a very uncomfortable, very unnatural feeling. It's when that discomfort starts to feel comfortable that we know we are on the road to recovery. Recovery is thinking out of the box, recovery is loving ourselves more than others, recovery is taking care of ourselves first then the rest our lives follow.
Originally Posted by pmaslan
Deax said:
I need advice.
Ok if it feels right...what advice are you specifically looking
for from this forum?
I need advice.
Ok if it feels right...what advice are you specifically looking
for from this forum?
Originally Posted by deax also said
The next time I talk to him on Friday, I want to be CLEAR in what I say, so that I can stick to it (and know exactly what I'm sticking to!). I need you guys' advice on what that should be.
-should I talk thim next in three months after his 36 sessions detox pgm is up?
-should i not talk to him til after the year of sobriety, still?
-WTF else do I say??
-should I talk thim next in three months after his 36 sessions detox pgm is up?
-should i not talk to him til after the year of sobriety, still?
-WTF else do I say??
I don't believe he's committed to this, I don't have any high hopes, they probably told him not to even call me and he did the second he got out-- I know that he knows what he's doing here and hope I haven't made it seem otherwise. I'm not completely delusional.
Originally Posted by minnie
I think that's great, Deax. If you need be clear in your own mind AND communicate that to him in order to move on, then that's what you should do.
Let us know what happens, yes?
Let us know what happens, yes?
deax, in the end you will do what is right for you at this time - that's how it works. no matter the outcome.
part of growth, maturity and recovery is being able to hear all views but still make the right choice for myself. i'm typing that as much to remind myself as to share with you.
let us know how it goes.
part of growth, maturity and recovery is being able to hear all views but still make the right choice for myself. i'm typing that as much to remind myself as to share with you.
let us know how it goes.
Originally Posted by denny57
deax, in the end you will do what is right for you at this time - that's how it works. no matter the outcome.
part of growth, maturity and recovery is being able to hear all views but still make the right choice for myself. i'm typing that as much to remind myself as to share with you.
let us know how it goes.
part of growth, maturity and recovery is being able to hear all views but still make the right choice for myself. i'm typing that as much to remind myself as to share with you.
let us know how it goes.
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Denny's right ....you will do what is right for you when that phone rings
LOL Did you ever practice in the mirror saying what you wanted to
say to someone..... only to find it all come out different when the time came.
I keep the principal in mind but don't get hung up anymore on the style of delivery...
LOL Did you ever practice in the mirror saying what you wanted to
say to someone..... only to find it all come out different when the time came.
I keep the principal in mind but don't get hung up anymore on the style of delivery...
I understand the turmoil you are in...btdt! I just hate it when they reappear in our lives!
Lots of food for thought mentioned here already. It's up to you to decide how you want to handle it. Like Minnie said, you can't set boundaries and protect someone else's feelings at the same time! It sounds so simple, and yet, for those of us not used to doing it, it can be quite difficult to wrap our brains around. Just keep repeating that to yourself until it becomes second nature to you.
Also, like Judy said, recovery - when we change and learn to take care of ourselves, does feel very uncomfortable at first. That's because we're not used to it. But with time, practice, and determination, it will begin to feel more comfortable. And, the old way of life will begin to feel uncomfortable, as it should!
I wonder though....all this time, turmoil and stress spent over this one phone call...what will it all matter if he 'doesn't' end up calling you on Friday? That too can be quite a lesson for you....how he tried to suck you back in, how much time you wasted and all for nothing.
Lots of food for thought mentioned here already. It's up to you to decide how you want to handle it. Like Minnie said, you can't set boundaries and protect someone else's feelings at the same time! It sounds so simple, and yet, for those of us not used to doing it, it can be quite difficult to wrap our brains around. Just keep repeating that to yourself until it becomes second nature to you.
Also, like Judy said, recovery - when we change and learn to take care of ourselves, does feel very uncomfortable at first. That's because we're not used to it. But with time, practice, and determination, it will begin to feel more comfortable. And, the old way of life will begin to feel uncomfortable, as it should!
I wonder though....all this time, turmoil and stress spent over this one phone call...what will it all matter if he 'doesn't' end up calling you on Friday? That too can be quite a lesson for you....how he tried to suck you back in, how much time you wasted and all for nothing.
Originally Posted by pmaslan
Denny's right ....you will do what is right for you when that phone rings
LOL Did you ever practice in the mirror saying what you wanted to
say to someone..... only to find it all come out different when the time came.
I keep the principal in mind but don't get hung up anymore on the style of delivery...
LOL Did you ever practice in the mirror saying what you wanted to
say to someone..... only to find it all come out different when the time came.
I keep the principal in mind but don't get hung up anymore on the style of delivery...
Originally Posted by ICU
Like Minnie said, you can't set boundaries and protect someone else's feelings at the same time!
If he doesn't call on Friday, that's fine, but it'll just be some other day in the very near future. Once again I'll be waiting on him. But I find that irrelevant at this point. And I just want to be prepared when he does call.
control control control control control control
I wouldnt bet the farm that this call on Friday will make him take you serisouly, TBH.
I also never didn't get back with him after a little time and some lecturing from me, either.
I knew he didn't take me seriously. Once he finally does
Originally Posted by elizabeth1979
control control control control control control
I wouldnt bet the farm that this call on Friday will make him take you serisouly, TBH.
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