elizabeth1979

For the folks here who are still elbow deep in drama, lies, addicts behavior, hooks, manipulation, and hurting..I wanted to share what its like after.
It hurst for a while.
You dont stop loving them.
You start loving yourself.
You think you are valuable.
You become proud of yourself and your life
and you stop being ashamed.
You learn what is your job
and what isnt.
You see the goodness all around you
and even when there is sadness, you know
you can make it through.
You stop avoiding your friends.
You start living.
You become the person you were meant to be.

You wonder what took you so long
but are grateful for the journeys lesson not length.

Missy

wow... that is what my sponsor is trying to tell me.. I'm between the 2nd and third and now that it is black and white.... I see there may be progress with all of us...
must just ba a mopey day heh?

elizabeth1979

Yep, bad days happen.
Its ok to have them.

((Karen))

minnie

(((SE)))

And you get to do wild things like take off across the Pond and visit a load of people who you have never met but seem to know better than anyone else in the world.

brdlvr

Thank you for that. Right now, I cannot see the good that may come out of it, not one bit. But from what you wrote, and what I read, if I get myself out of the mess - it will get better. But damn it hurts right now....

equus

You sound so good - all the things you list I reckon are sure signs of life getting better...

rivercitybelle

Yes brdlvr it REALLY does get better! Unfortunately when it hurts, it really, really hurts. I wish I had a magic wand to make it hurt less for you and everyone else out there that is hurting so much it's hard to see the door, let alone the sunshine and freedom outside. I have no magic. I do have faith and believe. I've been there. I left there. Now, I look back and it aches just a bit but I remember the hurt - this is no longer a part of my world. Soon it will no longer be a part of yours too. REALLY~ you just have to believe and work to make it happen.

megamysterioso

Thanks for posting this Sarah! I'll be on my in July and am looking forward to moving on with life. Right now my life seems to be at a pause. I'm sure I'll have my moments, but all in all, I need to reconnect with myself and set my direction in life.

You Go Minnie!!!

Minx1969

((((SE))))...

I think it's also important to mention that when the difficult times come again (which they will) you have the faith that things will be ok again and that you can get through it..

At the moment I'm a little bummed out that i'm still unemployed after 5 months..

but I have the faith that it is going to get better again...

I have so many more tools today to get outside of my head.