pmaslan

Christie..lol thanks for the goodies.......

Spenldra, yes it is all or nothing with an A him in particular. Thank you for
your kind words.


Judy, I have the answer now. He is gone and I have to get back to that
place I was in 2 weeks ago. Even if it was a fake place it sure was better
than this place I am in now.
I am actually going to have some wine when I get off work....in honor of him...
it's a nice merlot and oh yeah the name brand is "Fat Bastard" He ain't
fat but he sure is a ...................

minnie

(((Patty)))

Sorry I've been gone for most of your temporary meltdown, but you have been in my thoughts.

I am so sorry to hear it came to all of this, but I am grateful that it wasn't a long, drawn out scenario.

Back on that horse, young lady.

denny57

Patty, I think you are being too hard on yourself. I have said and thought so many of the same things as you. It seems that maybe you are beating yourself up for still loving him. What is wrong with that? For me, no contact has meant serenity, not getting over my AH. Although, if that is what happens in the process, so be it. No contact, detachment, all of it, is about bringing some sense to your life. Forget about getting over someone, hoping they hit bottom, etc. You still love him? Then that is what is. What you can change is how you behave and you did that.

Hope this makes sense, just got off 24 hours worth of planes.

Gabe

Patty, I'm helping Minnie saddle up the horse.
She's right, back you go.
This is how it is now.
It's not how it's going to stay.
Love and light from me to you.