He's there!! 3 Months today!
He's there!! 3 Months today!
Whatever happens tomorrow, next month, next year, next week, nothing can remove that this is also real, nothing can take it away or make it never have happened.
I watched the process, from moderation to abstainance that failed, from it being suggested we celebrate the 3 month mark to being suggested we don't count days or weeks, that what matters will be how lapses are dealt with. We've both been helped, both been let down. I still struggle with feeling the NHS made a liar out of me - I had said they would help, I said if you tell them they will help and instead all they did was argue that this one or that one should help. I know now that any help is just a stroke of luck, not something you expect or bank on.
His current bosses took a chance and something inside makes me feel they did it as human beings, that it was as much a human choice as a business one. I'm grateful for humanity wherever it comes from, it's an unbelievabley powerful force, probably this time more powerful than they will ever know.
Sometimes I've worried, sharp memories of realities spelt out to me. Bigger stuff I've posted and smaller stuf I've chosen to not dwell on too much, like D saying he felt he could sense the age of the roads while he drives and things that had taken place there.
One thing I know is that he's beaten all expectations from doctors and addiction counsellors. Now all I have to do is wait 9 hours to celebrate tonight!!
9 HOURS!!! EEEEEEEP!!!! How will I last 9 hours??
I watched the process, from moderation to abstainance that failed, from it being suggested we celebrate the 3 month mark to being suggested we don't count days or weeks, that what matters will be how lapses are dealt with. We've both been helped, both been let down. I still struggle with feeling the NHS made a liar out of me - I had said they would help, I said if you tell them they will help and instead all they did was argue that this one or that one should help. I know now that any help is just a stroke of luck, not something you expect or bank on.
His current bosses took a chance and something inside makes me feel they did it as human beings, that it was as much a human choice as a business one. I'm grateful for humanity wherever it comes from, it's an unbelievabley powerful force, probably this time more powerful than they will ever know.
Sometimes I've worried, sharp memories of realities spelt out to me. Bigger stuff I've posted and smaller stuf I've chosen to not dwell on too much, like D saying he felt he could sense the age of the roads while he drives and things that had taken place there.
One thing I know is that he's beaten all expectations from doctors and addiction counsellors. Now all I have to do is wait 9 hours to celebrate tonight!!
9 HOURS!!! EEEEEEEP!!!! How will I last 9 hours??
Right this is the plan:
5.45pm he gets home and gets a cup of tea.
5.50pm I give him the card to say well done, and inside there's a handwritten letter (biggy 'cos I hate my handwriting and it took ages!!) telling him what difference the last months have made, how much closer we've been able to be and other sloppy but true stuff!!
6.00 - 6.15pm I tell him he has to ring his Mother, because she's got some nice news - he loves his Mum's socks off so he'll ring straight away.
6.15pm His mother tells him she needs to know whether he's coming home tonight or driving down tomorrow. (At this point D thinks his Mother has gone nuts till I tell him he has the day off work and the dogs are sorted for the weekend!!). D's Mum and me get to share him finding he ain't going to work tomorrow - he's going to his beloved hills and family!!
Now all I have to do is wait......
5.45pm he gets home and gets a cup of tea.
5.50pm I give him the card to say well done, and inside there's a handwritten letter (biggy 'cos I hate my handwriting and it took ages!!) telling him what difference the last months have made, how much closer we've been able to be and other sloppy but true stuff!!
6.00 - 6.15pm I tell him he has to ring his Mother, because she's got some nice news - he loves his Mum's socks off so he'll ring straight away.
6.15pm His mother tells him she needs to know whether he's coming home tonight or driving down tomorrow. (At this point D thinks his Mother has gone nuts till I tell him he has the day off work and the dogs are sorted for the weekend!!). D's Mum and me get to share him finding he ain't going to work tomorrow - he's going to his beloved hills and family!!
Now all I have to do is wait......
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i know you are probably just counting the minutes eq. i am so happy for you and D.
may you have a blazing purple weekend!!!!!
i know you are probably just counting the minutes eq. i am so happy for you and D.
may you have a blazing purple weekend!!!!!
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