I need help and support
 

I'm new here...and I hope someone can throw me a lifeline. I feel like I'm drowning, trapped. I'm tired of being scared and angry. I'm tired of being lied to. How does anyone deal with this and still have a happy moment? I know that I can't control or cure...logically...but I still want to. I don't want it to be this way anymore.

welcome scaredycat - we've all felt some or all of those things. have you looked into al-anon? nothing we say or do is going to "make" another human being change. they got to want to do it for themselves. read the stickies and i'm sure more folks will be along with some experience, strength and hope. just finding and posting on this website is a first step in taking care of you.

Have you looked into Al-anon or Nar-Anon? Maybe it would help telling a bit more about what's going on. I see this is your 2nd post, so maybe you already did, sorry if I missed it.

I need nar-anon, but so far haven't been able to get to a meeting. They are all rather far from me and a I have a young child.
My husband was sober when we married. 6 years. Just after his 10th year of sobriety, he decided that he could handle having a drink or a little pot. 7 years later...well you can guess the outcome. Now he's smoking cocaine again. I try to protect the kids from it. I don't want them to know. Of course he promises to change, or he lies and screams at me for not trusting him... My situation is not unique, but right now...I just don't think I can handle it anymore. I'm trapped in this situtation for many reasons...I just feel like I'm at the end of my rope.

Hi scardeycat, glad you found us.
One of the best things about finding a support group like this is finding out that you're not alone.
There are a lot of people here who understand what you're going through.
One step at a time, you can get to a happier place in life.
Just start by believing it's possible and that you deserve it.
There is a lot of power in belief.

Thank you Gabe.

Thank you Done-With-It. Having someone care enough to post a reply means alot.

Hi SC,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

I care about you, because I am in your boat too. Ex relapsed after 4 yrs, he turned back into the monster and it hurts. More than words can say. But I have recovery in Al Anon...I cannot live without the help, hope and love I get from the fellowship.

Please try to go...your city might have alateen, for the kids....they are extremely affected too....even if you dont see it, they are.

Try al anon online meetings, therye out there,,and keep coming here to talk and ask questions. You are not alone....and never have to be!

Hugs.......

Christina