sadface

Just need to tell someone what I am feeling. Two weeks ago I had surgery. My husband who is recovering stopped by before I went in. Both my boys picked me up from the hospital and brought me home, and they took care of me. My husband stopped by for about a half hour (twice during the week) and told the boys to take care of me. He said he is working and doesn't have time to stay longer. Saturday, I had an all day class when I came home around 5 pm. He left a couple of messages stating his dog was dying. I could hear he was sad and he was drunk. He told me not to call him, not to look for him, and just leave him alone. I had not called him all day. His other message said his dog is dying and he knows it is not my fault or his. It is not an excuse to drink but he wants to be left alone. I have not heard from him since. Deep down I know he has reason to be sad, but getting drunk is an excuse. Also, the leave me alone is he doesn't want me to call him and lecture him about what is he doing. He wants to be left alone to drink, because that is what he wants to do. To him drinking is an excuse to take time of work. This doesn't sound like the man who states he is making every effort to change for the better. We have been separated for a year now. He has made progress regarding meth, though I wonder. Every time he does things like this it enforces my feeling that not only am I alone,but I need to go forward without him. I have been taking the steps to get on my own two feet. In January I will be taking the state exam, If I pass, I can work part-time along with full-time job. Doing this I will no longer be dependent on him.