Hang on for the ride...lets hope it is a smooth one...
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Hang on for the ride...lets hope it is a smooth one...
I have decided that the only way that I can relax is to trust that my husband is serious about his sobriety this time. He went to an AA meeting today and walked home 3 miles in 5 degree weather and told me he is going tomorrow as well....my car is STILL dead.
He called my father and asked for a loan for us to get another car (this was a HUGE deal) and of course my father agreed with no questions and tons of support.
I heard him mutter under his breath "I will accept what I can not change..." while trying to get the dog off of the couch.
He is a different person. He says that last Monday before I dropped him off for his brief rehab stay, that when our 4 year old was hugging him and saying "I love you so much Daddy" that he had what he called "A moment of grace", a life altering feeling. He claims that he can never go back now. That he is starting over with a great deal of knowledge and the ability to have regrets, but the wisdom not to dwell on them.
I am so proud of him and I need to put my energy into supporting, rather than doubting him.
And he STILL knows that is he drinks, then he leaves....I MEAN that, yet it is no longer the primary fear in my mind.
I am grateful for this place, for me to journal, to get ideas, to learn, to find support, to get reality checks and to just express...what I need to.
Thank you,
Jenny
He called my father and asked for a loan for us to get another car (this was a HUGE deal) and of course my father agreed with no questions and tons of support.
I heard him mutter under his breath "I will accept what I can not change..." while trying to get the dog off of the couch.
He is a different person. He says that last Monday before I dropped him off for his brief rehab stay, that when our 4 year old was hugging him and saying "I love you so much Daddy" that he had what he called "A moment of grace", a life altering feeling. He claims that he can never go back now. That he is starting over with a great deal of knowledge and the ability to have regrets, but the wisdom not to dwell on them.
I am so proud of him and I need to put my energy into supporting, rather than doubting him.
And he STILL knows that is he drinks, then he leaves....I MEAN that, yet it is no longer the primary fear in my mind.
I am grateful for this place, for me to journal, to get ideas, to learn, to find support, to get reality checks and to just express...what I need to.
Thank you,
Jenny
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Originally Posted by JennyK
I am so proud of him and I need to put my energy into supporting, rather than doubting him.
Keep your focus on you and your recovery too.
Jenny - I am so happy for you. I wish you both the best in each of your recoveries.
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