I don’t know if this will be helpful
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I don’t know if this will be helpful
Hello everyone
i came back here to read my old threads as part of reminding myself what I went through. I find it helpful when the “good moments” creep in. On every thread I started I had kicked him out and many many times between and after. I always let him back. He always had another reason or excuse or plan that I wanted to hear.
it was a toxic cycle of a terrible relationship. I cannot believe what I have gone through and I’m still alive. It’s been that bad.
i am finally out and I went to court for a non molestation order to stop him harassing me.
i finally reached my tipping point.
and now every single day is like a bright new one. No worries no anxiety no upset no rows.
No detective work, no instincts jangling, no driving round trying to find him, him spending my money, drink driving.. the list is endless.
i am upset that four years of trying has gone down the plughole but that wasn’t my fault.
he is beyond help and I have saved my children and myself from another day of absolute poison.
I remember being jealous of the people who got out. I’m truly one of them now.
i came back here to read my old threads as part of reminding myself what I went through. I find it helpful when the “good moments” creep in. On every thread I started I had kicked him out and many many times between and after. I always let him back. He always had another reason or excuse or plan that I wanted to hear.
it was a toxic cycle of a terrible relationship. I cannot believe what I have gone through and I’m still alive. It’s been that bad.
i am finally out and I went to court for a non molestation order to stop him harassing me.
i finally reached my tipping point.
and now every single day is like a bright new one. No worries no anxiety no upset no rows.
No detective work, no instincts jangling, no driving round trying to find him, him spending my money, drink driving.. the list is endless.
i am upset that four years of trying has gone down the plughole but that wasn’t my fault.
he is beyond help and I have saved my children and myself from another day of absolute poison.
I remember being jealous of the people who got out. I’m truly one of them now.
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I never had the guts to leave my husband. He died.
I loved him, but even grieving him, there was the idea that some of the emotional burden had lifted. I sometime regret the later years of our marriage, but I can own the fact that not leaving was my choice. The wonderful man I met after I was widowed - he wasn't available years before. So, even though I pretty much dislike country/western music, this is what comes to mind when I think of my life with New Guy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLRC64uomjk
I loved him, but even grieving him, there was the idea that some of the emotional burden had lifted. I sometime regret the later years of our marriage, but I can own the fact that not leaving was my choice. The wonderful man I met after I was widowed - he wasn't available years before. So, even though I pretty much dislike country/western music, this is what comes to mind when I think of my life with New Guy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jLRC64uomjk
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