Managing expectations at this time of year!
I'm with your therapist on this one. Trying to be friends with someone whom you want more from is a losing proposition with or without addiction involved. It's not honest. It's not being respectful of what you really want. It just leads to trying to stuff your true feelings down until they explode all over the place in inappropriate and unhealthy ways. That energy is better spent getting out of that self-love deficit by learning to recognize that we, like all human beings, are worthy of real affection, respect and intimacy--from ourselves first and foremost!
I know how it feels when you think everyone just doesn't understand. We've all been there, though, so it's possible the folks here at SR understand better than you wish we would.
I know how it feels when you think everyone just doesn't understand. We've all been there, though, so it's possible the folks here at SR understand better than you wish we would.
I think your therapist is correct. Did you think that your friendship with him would get him to change? Get him clean/sober? What benefit to him would your friendship be?
And ask yourself what benefit to you would his friendship bring to you in your life?
And ask yourself what benefit to you would his friendship bring to you in your life?
He "thinks" he does? 5 months ago he said he only wanted to be with men when he was high, but that he was actually straight.
From an earlier post you made:
If nothing else, this should send you running for the hills. All the other stuff should too, but if that's not enough to convince you of how messed up his thinking is, I don't know what would.
He may be gay, he may be heterosexual he may be bi-sexual, that doesn't matter, what matters is he doesn't KNOW. Now, if he was 15 I would think, ok, totally understandable, he's confused.
But he's not 15, he's a grown up person. So, perhaps that means he is really immature and not thinking straight, or he's lying.
Doesn't really matter which, either way you get hurt.
This isn't just about alcoholism you know, although that is a HUGE issue with him, this about a lot more. He was an up and coming footballer with a great future, handsome, had money (probably), attention, living in, at least, a small limelight. Accolades from family and friends.
Them bam, that's all over.
He may be gay but cannot admit it not only to his family but not even to YOU and he had a relationship with you! That's a big huge red flag!
Top that off with an athletic future that will never be (huge disappointment and I do have compassion for him about that), a drinking problem, a cousin that will enable him, probably for years.
Now, why would you be involved in that?
I think the remarks you make about his cousin to him are just jabs to get back at him because that relationship makes you unhappy. Have you asked yourself if that's fair? He may be an alcoholic and he may not treat you well, but why do you want to make his life even more miserable.
Unless and until you are willing to step up to the plate and support him financially and put a roof over his head - ? If it weren't for her, he would be living on the street.
From an earlier post you made:
He may be gay, he may be heterosexual he may be bi-sexual, that doesn't matter, what matters is he doesn't KNOW. Now, if he was 15 I would think, ok, totally understandable, he's confused.
But he's not 15, he's a grown up person. So, perhaps that means he is really immature and not thinking straight, or he's lying.
Doesn't really matter which, either way you get hurt.
This isn't just about alcoholism you know, although that is a HUGE issue with him, this about a lot more. He was an up and coming footballer with a great future, handsome, had money (probably), attention, living in, at least, a small limelight. Accolades from family and friends.
Them bam, that's all over.
He may be gay but cannot admit it not only to his family but not even to YOU and he had a relationship with you! That's a big huge red flag!
Top that off with an athletic future that will never be (huge disappointment and I do have compassion for him about that), a drinking problem, a cousin that will enable him, probably for years.
Now, why would you be involved in that?
I think the remarks you make about his cousin to him are just jabs to get back at him because that relationship makes you unhappy. Have you asked yourself if that's fair? He may be an alcoholic and he may not treat you well, but why do you want to make his life even more miserable.
Unless and until you are willing to step up to the plate and support him financially and put a roof over his head - ? If it weren't for her, he would be living on the street.
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I suppose I like being in his company. You see it's very easy for others to read the thread when your looking at it from someone who's not emotionally involved, or addicted to him. I love being in his company, I get that hit every time, as he is quite charismatic. However I am aware I'm getting little else from it.
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He "thinks" he does? 5 months ago he said he only wanted to be with men when he was high, but that he was actually straight.
From an earlier post you made:
If nothing else, this should send you running for the hills. All the other stuff should too, but if that's not enough to convince you of how messed up his thinking is, I don't know what would.
He may be gay, he may be heterosexual he may be bi-sexual, that doesn't matter, what matters is he doesn't KNOW. Now, if he was 15 I would think, ok, totally understandable, he's confused.
But he's not 15, he's a grown up person. So, perhaps that means he is really immature and not thinking straight, or he's lying.
Doesn't really matter which, either way you get hurt.
This isn't just about alcoholism you know, although that is a HUGE issue with him, this about a lot more. He was an up and coming footballer with a great future, handsome, had money (probably), attention, living in, at least, a small limelight. Accolades from family and friends.
Them bam, that's all over.
He may be gay but cannot admit it not only to his family but not even to YOU and he had a relationship with you! That's a big huge red flag!
Top that off with an athletic future that will never be (huge disappointment and I do have compassion for him about that), a drinking problem, a cousin that will enable him, probably for years.
Now, why would you be involved in that?
I think the remarks you make about his cousin to him are just jabs to get back at him because that relationship makes you unhappy. Have you asked yourself if that's fair? He may be an alcoholic and he may not treat you well, but why do you want to make his life even more miserable.
Unless and until you are willing to step up to the plate and support him financially and put a roof over his head - ? If it weren't for her, he would be living on the street.
From an earlier post you made:
If nothing else, this should send you running for the hills. All the other stuff should too, but if that's not enough to convince you of how messed up his thinking is, I don't know what would.
He may be gay, he may be heterosexual he may be bi-sexual, that doesn't matter, what matters is he doesn't KNOW. Now, if he was 15 I would think, ok, totally understandable, he's confused.
But he's not 15, he's a grown up person. So, perhaps that means he is really immature and not thinking straight, or he's lying.
Doesn't really matter which, either way you get hurt.
This isn't just about alcoholism you know, although that is a HUGE issue with him, this about a lot more. He was an up and coming footballer with a great future, handsome, had money (probably), attention, living in, at least, a small limelight. Accolades from family and friends.
Them bam, that's all over.
He may be gay but cannot admit it not only to his family but not even to YOU and he had a relationship with you! That's a big huge red flag!
Top that off with an athletic future that will never be (huge disappointment and I do have compassion for him about that), a drinking problem, a cousin that will enable him, probably for years.
Now, why would you be involved in that?
I think the remarks you make about his cousin to him are just jabs to get back at him because that relationship makes you unhappy. Have you asked yourself if that's fair? He may be an alcoholic and he may not treat you well, but why do you want to make his life even more miserable.
Unless and until you are willing to step up to the plate and support him financially and put a roof over his head - ? If it weren't for her, he would be living on the street.
But it's so hard not to point out the inappropriateness of their physical contact and enabling. I don't do it to get jabs at all, I do it as I feel some good damn person should be showing him what healthy is. Not saying I can fix or save him but someone should be pointing this stuff out. The irony is, when he got clean before he would tell me about how his cousin was actually making him sick with the amount of drink she would buy him and other things, but he can't see it now again. I mean this is a guy who only revealed this year that he had been sexually abused by his dad for years . Shouldnt this cousin be even more aware because of this. All I know is I'm still missing some part of this puzzle.
I suppose that's why I need to focus back on me only again and not try point things out. He won't listen anyway.
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I'm with your therapist on this one. Trying to be friends with someone whom you want more from is a losing proposition with or without addiction involved. It's not honest. It's not being respectful of what you really want. It just leads to trying to stuff your true feelings down until they explode all over the place in inappropriate and unhealthy ways. That energy is better spent getting out of that self-love deficit by learning to recognize that we, like all human beings, are worthy of real affection, respect and intimacy--from ourselves first and foremost!
I know how it feels when you think everyone just doesn't understand. We've all been there, though, so it's possible the folks here at SR understand better than you wish we would.
I know how it feels when you think everyone just doesn't understand. We've all been there, though, so it's possible the folks here at SR understand better than you wish we would.
Yes I think your right. Also in this case, I dared to speak out against his enabler (cousin). God forbid anyone does that, except him when he is drunk and abuses her. I also told him the situation reminds me of the film 'misery' where the main character does everything in her power to keep her captor sick. Oops. Very Codependent of me I know but I couldn't resist. So now it's just the two of them in that situation. He will probably try to hook someone else in now. I know it's a blessing for me, just hope I can stay strong now as you say and not fall into the trap of only remembering good things.
https://youtu.be/lJ3qj98u4q0
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Ever since you mentioned this movie, whenever you mention the cousin, I picture her in my head as Kathy Bates, yelling “he didn’t get out of the C**k-A-Doodie car!”
https://youtu.be/lJ3qj98u4q0
https://youtu.be/lJ3qj98u4q0
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No contact from him since Xmas day. I'm not blocked on the messaging app anymore so must have unblocked me. Once again despite all my hard work on myself, I'm longing to hear from him.
His last message read "God bless,
I’m done with people pleasing.
You let me down on Xmas day.
Cheers".
Finding it hard to resist messaging to see how he is, yet don't want to make that initial contact. I know, no new contacts no new hurts, yet I have that longing.
His last message read "God bless,
I’m done with people pleasing.
You let me down on Xmas day.
Cheers".
Finding it hard to resist messaging to see how he is, yet don't want to make that initial contact. I know, no new contacts no new hurts, yet I have that longing.
Just like the addict, you must deny the cravings. Find something to do to take your mind off it. You are only torturing yourself. Don't give in and then have to start over again on Day 1.
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Good! Continue to be stubborn.
Although that won't get you too awfully far because he will contact you again.
It's that on again off again thing. He's taken a few days to get over his snit (and I call it a snit because grown-up people understand when someone refuses a social offer).
I don't know what it will take for you to break out of this.
Although that won't get you too awfully far because he will contact you again.
It's that on again off again thing. He's taken a few days to get over his snit (and I call it a snit because grown-up people understand when someone refuses a social offer).
I don't know what it will take for you to break out of this.
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Good! Continue to be stubborn.
Although that won't get you too awfully far because he will contact you again.
It's that on again off again thing. He's taken a few days to get over his snit (and I call it a snit because grown-up people understand when someone refuses a social offer).
I don't know what it will take for you to break out of this.
Although that won't get you too awfully far because he will contact you again.
It's that on again off again thing. He's taken a few days to get over his snit (and I call it a snit because grown-up people understand when someone refuses a social offer).
I don't know what it will take for you to break out of this.
Yes totally agree grown up people can say yes or no without throwing all their toys out of the pram.
Also can I say, I love that word snit! I have no idea what it means but it made me laugh.
Above all (well aside from drinking) he has got to be bored out of his tree at this point. You are his "friend" (and I use that term loosely) you also provide a great deal of drama and this guy LOVES drama, so yeah, he'll be back, eventually.
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So he has taken his few days to get over his "snit" haha and unblocked you, awaiting your contact.
Above all (well aside from drinking) he has got to be bored out of his tree at this point. You are his "friend" (and I use that term loosely) you also provide a great deal of drama and this guy LOVES drama, so yeah, he'll be back, eventually.
Above all (well aside from drinking) he has got to be bored out of his tree at this point. You are his "friend" (and I use that term loosely) you also provide a great deal of drama and this guy LOVES drama, so yeah, he'll be back, eventually.
Still need to look up that word snit. Ok just googled it.
"a fit of irritation; a sulk". Perfect!
He'll contact you--don't doubt it--unfortunate but true.
He's bored and childish and doesn't care what impact his actions have on others.
Why don't you block him?
You spend so much of your precious life energy on this person who cannot give you anything of value in return between his addiction and dysfunction.
He's bored and childish and doesn't care what impact his actions have on others.
Why don't you block him?
You spend so much of your precious life energy on this person who cannot give you anything of value in return between his addiction and dysfunction.
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He'll contact you--don't doubt it--unfortunate but true.
He's bored and childish and doesn't care what impact his actions have on others.
Why don't you block him?
You spend so much of your precious life energy on this person who cannot give you anything of value in return between his addiction and dysfunction.
He's bored and childish and doesn't care what impact his actions have on others.
Why don't you block him?
You spend so much of your precious life energy on this person who cannot give you anything of value in return between his addiction and dysfunction.
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