Just for today, just for me. Add yours.
 

When I started my recovery from this family disease of alcoholism, I didn't realize how I had fallen into a supporting role for others, doing things for their happiness.

I'm learning to do things for my own happiness. In this, I allow others to do things for their happiness, too, in their own ways. Stepping away from manipulation and into living this life for myself, one moment at a time. What I really love about this is the true, genuine relationships that are growing. Honestly, lots of bumpy roads on the way. Some family members and friends were very used to me being in a set role I no longer see as healthy for me.

Both doing things for my happiness and acknowledging them are important. Building new neuropathways in the brain and also building a better relationship with myself.


Just for today, just for me:

I lit a fire in the fireplace.

Just for me, just for today, I will allow myself to feel my sadness and sense of loss; wallow in it for a few hours, and release it.
I have been dog-sitting for my dad while he is out of state working until December. The time has come to have her put to sleep - she’s old, has medical problems, and is suffering. This is going to be really hard since I’ve known her her entire life. I have discussed this with my dad and he knew it was coming. I feel very sad and will grieve her loss.
I recently reconnected with an old friend and after an incredibly fun evening I declined the offer of sex. Sure, we used to fool around all the time in the past, but I’m not the same person anymore. He has ghosted me since. I acknowledge that I feel rejection (by a man I don’t want a relationship with anyway?!?!) and will allow myself to go ahead and feel it, cry for the “loss” - we were friends for 24 years - and let it all go.
I don’t even need to speak of the pain and anxiety I’ve been dealing with going no-contact with my AXBF...most of us already know too much about that.
I took the afternoon off from work so that I can take my dad’s dog to the vet and then come home and just “feel”. I’ll cry my heart out and grieve for all of the recent feelings of loss. I gave myself permission to have this one afternoon for that. Then, I’ll pick myself up, dry my puffy eyes, and get on with the healing!

Just for me I took the step of blocking my email and not allowing negative words to enter my world any longer. Just for me I have put my lawyer in charge of communication because I no longer wish to deal with it. Just for me I will be soft and kind with myself today and treat myself to a clean house and a piece of chocolate silk pie for my birthday and a luxurious bubble bath.

Just for today, I will stay focused on my side of the fence. I will stay true to myself and allow others to be who they are.

Just for me...Just for today.....

I will go and enjoy an out of town sporting event even though I should be at home doing other things. I will invite friends to go with me and have a wonderful time!

dawnrising, Happy, Happy, Happy Birthday!!!

Is cake okay, too? The chocolate silk pie sounds amazing!

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Just for me, just for today,

I'm going to sing. At home, while working, in the car, outside.

That ^ is a great idea, Mango :)
I will try it myself.

Mellybug,

I'm still finding rainbows. Using my imagination, I see one in the colors of the cake. ^^^

Rainbows - new beginnings.

Today I am going to dinner with my girlfriends for a much needed fun night.

It will be fun. I keep telling myself that I could stay home and relax. However, I am forcing myself out to go have some fun!

Just for me, just for today:

I allow an open heart.

I allow a healthy, vibrant life.

Just for me; tonight lm off to listen to some good music. Im going with a friend to see an ELO tribute band 🙂

Mr. Blue Sky
https://youtu.be/s7dTBoW5H9k

Have fun, Awal.

#livinginthemoment

They were amazing!!! They are called The ELO Experience. I did have fun and tonight l actually felt true happiness and uplifted in my soul for the first time in weeks. X

:)

Keep that feeling! It can be helpful to take time to sit, take a few deep breaths in and out. Enjoy this fully in this present memory of it. You deserve these good feeling moments and sitting with the recognition of this is very beneficial.

l am booking to see them at another venue in January. So something to look forward to.
Music is my 'addiction' albeit a healthy one! 😃

Making use of my past posts here, just for today, just for me:

I'm going to sing. Inside the house. Outside on walks. While driving in my car.

I allow an open heart.

I allow a healthy, vibrant life.


https://youtu.be/ZoG-r34LokE

#lawofattraction #lifeisgood #livinginthesolution

l find beach boys music very uplifting to sing along to "wouldnt it be nice..." "god only knows..." "breakaway" all very appropriate dont you think 😂