indecision--reunite with bingeing husband?
ONLY alone could I learn what I really wanted from a partner, and find the strength of self to reject the unacceptable.
ONLY alone could I learn to take care of my own needs and wants--and I grew to really like having things my way all the time!
ONLY alone could I learn that what Hollywood tells you "love" is is actually mostly unhealthy dependence on others for validation and acceptance--and that real love comes from inside us, for ourselves. Without that, we are just latching on to whoever pays attention to us.
ONLY alone could I learn that I really was good enough as-is--for me and everyone else and if anybody disagreed, well--that's their problem, not mine.
And it's ONLY because I made time in my life to do all that, to gain all that, that I was ready for a healthy relationship when the right person came along in my life. We've been married eight years this August, and I only have that because I took three years out of my life before we met to really focus on myself and my issues.
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And at the same time the idea of going back makes me feel so peaceful.
Yes I remember that feeling the 4 times my now exah and I got back together. It wasn't peaceful I was feeling tho it was just relief I didn't have to face up to the cold hard facts just yet. We were also married a long time..20 years and the thought of being alone and having to work on myself was terrifying. However my exah drinking got worse and worse and we did eventually divorce. I stayed single and still am and I got through the loneliness and feeling like my life was over. It was hard and painful but you can do it too if you choose too.
Yes I remember that feeling the 4 times my now exah and I got back together. It wasn't peaceful I was feeling tho it was just relief I didn't have to face up to the cold hard facts just yet. We were also married a long time..20 years and the thought of being alone and having to work on myself was terrifying. However my exah drinking got worse and worse and we did eventually divorce. I stayed single and still am and I got through the loneliness and feeling like my life was over. It was hard and painful but you can do it too if you choose too.
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