amy55

Babes,

I am trying to help you, I am trying to talk to you, but you really do need to give up that denial of how alcoholism doesn't affect others and that you should just get unconditional love and support.

I didn't get this, and I didn't deserve this. I had to earn back everything that I lost.

amy

If you are interested in talking, I am still here

Dee74

Babescake I think you should call a crisisline:
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html

I remember feeling like you do...but things got better and I did as well. I went on to have happy times again.

I think making a decision based on the way you feel now would be a mistake. Call someone or even 911

you really are worth the effort
D

Delilah1

I definitely agree, please call, and then use SR as a support, the Newcomers forum may be a place you want to start posting on again.

SparkleKitty

Babes, I think the very best thing you can do for yourself and your son is to seek intense treatment for your depression. I wish you the best.

hopeful4

Babes, you are at a point where you say you don't know what to do next. I think that is incorrect. The very best gift you can give to yourself, AND your son, is your own recovery. If that means counseling every single day, do it. If that means 90 in 90, do it. If that means having a sober coach, do it. If that means cutting off people who are not supportive of you and helping you, do it. If that means going to the ER and saying I am depressed and need help, do it.

Your son needs a mom. You need life, the healthy and happy life you deserve. Only you can achieve that, but I believe you can do it if you set your mind to it, and dedicate it to being the first most important thing.

Best wishes....

Sasha1972

Babescake, how are you today?