Encouragement PLEASE!
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Encouragement PLEASE!
Hello, it has been 4 days since I have ended my on again, off again relationship with my alcoholic boyfriend due to his deliberate choice to stop taking antibuse so he can drink again. My heart is so broken and I feel so lost. Im really just looking for words of encouragement to help me stay strong, I can't go back to this mess. Im physically and mentally ill over this. It feels like my days are passing minute by minute. Thank you so much.
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Hi mm.
Sorry to hear your situation.
You CAN do this! I have faith in you...
I left my AH 3 weeks ago. My 3 kids and I are doing incredibly well. Better than I imagined. Life is good again.
Stay strong. Focus on yourself. Read lots about codependency. It helps. Keep moving forward. It gets easier every day. No or low contact. Block everything of his that you can. Distance and time are golden. Keep reading and posting here. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.
Hugs.
Sorry to hear your situation.
You CAN do this! I have faith in you...
I left my AH 3 weeks ago. My 3 kids and I are doing incredibly well. Better than I imagined. Life is good again.
Stay strong. Focus on yourself. Read lots about codependency. It helps. Keep moving forward. It gets easier every day. No or low contact. Block everything of his that you can. Distance and time are golden. Keep reading and posting here. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.
Hugs.
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Mm,
You can do this!! Think of it this way, he is your drug of choice, your addiction. You can not listen to the voice telling you to help him, or forgive him, or feel sorry for him. This recovery is about you healing, not about taking care of him. If you are not well, how can you help someone else. Like they say on an airplane, put on your oxygen mask first.
Take it one minute at a time. Post here if you feel the urge to reach out and rescue him. This is about you now, not him. Be selfish, you are worth it in the end, as what you were doing before was not working. Sending big hugs your way.
You can do this!! Think of it this way, he is your drug of choice, your addiction. You can not listen to the voice telling you to help him, or forgive him, or feel sorry for him. This recovery is about you healing, not about taking care of him. If you are not well, how can you help someone else. Like they say on an airplane, put on your oxygen mask first.
Take it one minute at a time. Post here if you feel the urge to reach out and rescue him. This is about you now, not him. Be selfish, you are worth it in the end, as what you were doing before was not working. Sending big hugs your way.
I agree--it will get easier. Especially if you avoid any contact whatsoever with him. Once you answer the phone, reply to the text or email, or give in to the temptation of checking his FB to see what he's up to, you re-open the wound and delay the healing. So try to cut off all avenues of contact and give yourself some time. Try not to isolate. Go out with a friend for lunch. Drag yourself to a movie or go for a bike ride--something you would enjoy IF you were feeling better. Gradually you will start to feel better.
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I agree--it will get easier. Especially if you avoid any contact whatsoever with him. Once you answer the phone, reply to the text or email, or give in to the temptation of checking his FB to see what he's up to, you re-open the wound and delay the healing. So try to cut off all avenues of contact and give yourself some time. Try not to isolate. Go out with a friend for lunch. Drag yourself to a movie or go for a bike ride--something you would enjoy IF you were feeling better. Gradually you will start to feel better.
It’s going to be similar to an alcoholic trying to give up booze. You need to have a plan in place, support surrounding you and some kind of outside help like al-anon, therapy etc. You have to be willing to take control over your life and cut of all contact. Much like the alcoholic has to cut out all forms of alcohol in order to stop.
You can’t be a little in, a phone call here or there, a text message once in a while, hearing about him from others, etc. Otherwise the dance of on again off again remains.
Do you really want to be chasing after someone who has told you that booze is more important to him then a relationship with you? Is that the kind of woman you want to be, settling for crumbs here and there?
Take control over your life, accept that you deserve better than anything he can offer you. The longer you hold onto someone who is not going to move forward in life with you and give you the kind of life you seek, you won’t find the one who can.
You can’t be a little in, a phone call here or there, a text message once in a while, hearing about him from others, etc. Otherwise the dance of on again off again remains.
Do you really want to be chasing after someone who has told you that booze is more important to him then a relationship with you? Is that the kind of woman you want to be, settling for crumbs here and there?
Take control over your life, accept that you deserve better than anything he can offer you. The longer you hold onto someone who is not going to move forward in life with you and give you the kind of life you seek, you won’t find the one who can.
I second the advice to stay away from FB. If he's deliberately stopping the medication so he can drink, then he's obviously not at the stage of wanting sobriety enough. Once you get to that point you are much mentally stronger. I believe there'll come a time when he regrets this weakness, but you will have long moved on.
You are choosing health and a happy well balanced life for yourself.
You are choosing health and a happy well balanced life for yourself.
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Hi mm.
Sorry to hear your situation.
You CAN do this! I have faith in you...
I left my AH 3 weeks ago. My 3 kids and I are doing incredibly well. Better than I imagined. Life is good again.
Stay strong. Focus on yourself. Read lots about codependency. It helps. Keep moving forward. It gets easier every day. No or low contact. Block everything of his that you can. Distance and time are golden. Keep reading and posting here. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.
Hugs.
Sorry to hear your situation.
You CAN do this! I have faith in you...
I left my AH 3 weeks ago. My 3 kids and I are doing incredibly well. Better than I imagined. Life is good again.
Stay strong. Focus on yourself. Read lots about codependency. It helps. Keep moving forward. It gets easier every day. No or low contact. Block everything of his that you can. Distance and time are golden. Keep reading and posting here. There's a light at the end of the tunnel.
Hugs.
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Yes, distance and time! Maybe one way to think about it is not as dumping your boyfriend and ending the relationship (which focuses on your loss, because you obviously still have feelings for him) but as gaining the chance to make a happy, healthy life for yourself (which focuses on what you are doing for YOU, and you alone).
And really - adding a bunch of new young women as Facebook friends four days after the final breakup with his girlfriend? This man is not relationship material.
And really - adding a bunch of new young women as Facebook friends four days after the final breakup with his girlfriend? This man is not relationship material.
One way to take some control back is to BLOCK him in your phone, on FB, all social media. That way you are not waiting on the text or the phone call. It is extremely hard to do- but it will give you some power. Sometimes waiting for that text or phone call or looking at his FB can crumble your soul.
HUGS!
HUGS!
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If he has no desire to quit drinking, rest assured the alcohol will take him down. Maybe sooner. Maybe later. But it will happen. It's only a matter of time. Once an alcoholic crosses that line, there just isn't any going back.
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Yes, distance and time! Maybe one way to think about it is not as dumping your boyfriend and ending the relationship (which focuses on your loss, because you obviously still have feelings for him) but as gaining the chance to make a happy, healthy life for yourself (which focuses on what you are doing for YOU, and you alone).
And really - adding a bunch of new young women as Facebook friends four days after the final breakup with his girlfriend? This man is not relationship material.
And really - adding a bunch of new young women as Facebook friends four days after the final breakup with his girlfriend? This man is not relationship material.
I have been there- done that. Even if you start by blocking him for an hour. A few hours. A day. Just try it. It kind of helps give you a little bit of power back for yourself. I know u will wonder- did I miss his text- did I miss his call? But trust me- if they want to get in contact with you- they will figure out a way. It might be worth it to give yourself a little peace. Even if it's only few a little bit. You will get stronger. HUGS!! Just know you are not alone. So many of us have been in the same situation.
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