My newer "normal"
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My newer "normal"
Walking away from people who are manipulative, who try to tell me who I should be or what I should do (when it's in service of them or a projection), who use guilt to get what they want. Who don't respect me as a person and allow me to be me. Who take advantage of my kindness. Who don't respect my boundaries!
I am so happy when I think of where I am as opposed to where I would have been if I hadn't learned such hard lessons. I am so happy that the gut wrenching pain is over, that I am now able to deal with sadness in a constructive or healthy way... all that pain was worth it. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, I cried constantly but it was so worth it to get through to the other side. I still have issues with anxiety and seeking validation but it doesn't all seem so hopeless anymore. There is a light at the end of this tunnel and it gets brighter everyday. Things are not perfect but they are okay!
I am so happy when I think of where I am as opposed to where I would have been if I hadn't learned such hard lessons. I am so happy that the gut wrenching pain is over, that I am now able to deal with sadness in a constructive or healthy way... all that pain was worth it. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, I cried constantly but it was so worth it to get through to the other side. I still have issues with anxiety and seeking validation but it doesn't all seem so hopeless anymore. There is a light at the end of this tunnel and it gets brighter everyday. Things are not perfect but they are okay!
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One of my thoughts lately- is it normal to be surrounded by loving caring people? Is this my new normal? Or is it just a moment in time and is a normal life to be surrounded by turkeys? I spent the weekend with FOO and it was just okay... but my siblings - not to judge- they are so different from me. Individually each seems to not treat herself with love and kindness.... just purely from a health standpoint- poor diet, no exercise, little attention paid to basic hygiene. Honestly I was once the same way in my early twenties. I had to learn self care. So now I ask- it seems to me part of self care is to select friends and lovers who are good to you- and to discern who you should avoid because they bring you down.
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One of my thoughts lately- is it normal to be surrounded by loving caring people? Is this my new normal? Or is it just a moment in time and is a normal life to be surrounded by turkeys? I spent the weekend with FOO and it was just okay... but my siblings - not to judge- they are so different from me. Individually each seems to not treat herself with love and kindness.... just purely from a health standpoint- poor diet, no exercise, little attention paid to basic hygiene. Honestly I was once the same way in my early twenties. I had to learn self care. So now I ask- it seems to me part of self care is to select friends and lovers who are good to you- and to discern who you should avoid because they bring you down.
I FINALLY have some good balance in place and am starting to feel better about who I choose to ask into my life and the energy I expend on those relationships. I had to work through a lot of friendships and patterns though to get here.
It is possible, and I am much happier for having done it.
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I am so happy that the gut wrenching pain is over, that I am now able to deal with sadness in a constructive or healthy way... all that pain was worth it. I didn't eat, I didn't sleep, I cried constantly but it was so worth it to get through to the other side. I still have issues with anxiety and seeking validation but it doesn't all seem so hopeless anymore. There is a light at the end of this tunnel and it gets brighter everyday. Things are not perfect but they are okay!
Congrats to you Expanding for coming through most of it. Joy, peace and continuing healing to you!
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Thank you all! I want to put it out there so people can see you can get through whatever hell it is you're going through. When I first joined I had to trust that strangers had my best interest in mind. After going through everything with the ex is was a very hard leap to make but at that point I had nothing to lose. I love that this community exists, I never realized how vital support was to success. I feel like I owe a lot of people my life because I finally have one. Have a great day everyone
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When I first joined I had to trust that strangers had my best interest in mind. After going through everything with the ex is was a very hard leap to make but at that point I had nothing to lose. I love that this community exists, I never realized how vital support was to success. I feel like I owe a lot of people my life because I finally have one. Have a great day everyone
Good for you, I'm glad you're coming out on the other side. Hope to join you one day.
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