I never thought this would happen.
 

I couldn't contact my husband/ex yesterday so I kept bugging him all night. I felt like something was wrong. He never responded so I went first thing this am to check up on him and within 30min of me getting there he passed away. I'm in shock. I know we had finalized the divorce recently but I was holding out hope that he would stop drinking and we would reconcile. I just can't believe this. It's just so senseless for a young man to lose his life to this disease. I'm heartbroken that he's gone, heartbroken that he was alone that night. I didn't realize the true severity until it was too late and he was gone. I didn't get to say goodbye. I didn't get to tell him I still loved him, regardless of the marriage papers or not.

Tinyhouse, I'm so sorry. So, so sorry. I will be praying for you and your husband tonight. There will be others with more words of wisdom, but I wanted to reach out to you and tell you that this was not your fault. You loved him as best you could and even beyond that, but unfortunately love is not enough.

Alcoholism. It is not fair.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I also lost a former partner to this disease and what comforts me is the thought that he is no longer suffering.

I'm so sorry

Tiny- grief is natural and will have it's day. Stay safe and share here if you want to. I have stories as we all do. Can I offer you my prayers for you and your loved ones? I hope you find peace and remember the good things for the person you knew who passed away. That it happened was out of your control- doing the 'if only I did...' does not help. We all follow our own path. Do not under estimate the effect on you- take care of yourself.
PJ.

Tinyhouse.....my heart is going out to you, tonight. I wish I could be there to hug you.
I hope you can take some comfort from Madbird's post. I, also, believe that the knowledge that their suffering is over does bring some solice...
I am sure that he knew, at some level, that you loved him.

I hope that you will post here whenever you want to express your thoughts and feelings....we all have known the pain of this disease...

Oh Tinyhouse, I'm so sorry. So heartbreaking. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

I'm truly sorry for your loss. It's a tragic disease. You did what you could for him.

Hugs and warm thoughts,

Sorry to hear this. Wish you the best.

I am so very sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

So sorry for your loss Tinyhouse

Th,
I am so sorry, none of us ever truly give up on our addicts. We always hope one day. Hugs to you and your family.

Tinyhouse, my thoughts are with you. I'm so sorry for your loss.

Thank you all for your replies and kind words. Prayers are appreciated.

So very sorry for your loss. I was in shock when I read your post. My prayers are with you.

omg I am so very sorry for your loss and pain :(

How devastating for you. Life can be so confusing and astonishingly hard sometimes! Please take comfort in knowing that you loved him and did your best x

I'm so sorry; I can't imagine your pain. From everything you have written here, I am certain your husband knew that you loved him. Please know for certain that there was nothing you could have done to change this. I'm so sorry for your loss and praying for you both.

So sorry for your loss - cannot imagine your pain.

Keep coming back!

Heartfelt prayers
 

Dear Tinyhouse.
No words can begin to soften the blow of such a tragic loss.
Hold onto what was good.
His death does not define his life.
Find small ways to honour that life every day.
Sending you love and prayers xo