An epiphany on how codie I am
An epiphany on how codie I am
I'm in bed last night trying to fall asleep and thinking of things I can do to start letting people help themselves instead of being a caretaker.
So this thought pops in my head...next time AH is home I will take the time to show him a few things on the computer. Then it hits me like honestly the weirdest feeling in the world I thought for a split second "if I do that he won't need me and then he won't love me". Then instantly I thought "wait that's codie thinking, that's not true, and why did I think that?"
It was so strange to have that actual thought and realize that it's wrong. I guess it came out of my subconscious and I immediately recognized it was not true. I hope this is progress, because I've never had a conscious thought about it. I can't even put into words how strange it was.
So this thought pops in my head...next time AH is home I will take the time to show him a few things on the computer. Then it hits me like honestly the weirdest feeling in the world I thought for a split second "if I do that he won't need me and then he won't love me". Then instantly I thought "wait that's codie thinking, that's not true, and why did I think that?"
It was so strange to have that actual thought and realize that it's wrong. I guess it came out of my subconscious and I immediately recognized it was not true. I hope this is progress, because I've never had a conscious thought about it. I can't even put into words how strange it was.
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