A Year Later......
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A Year Later......
Today has been a year since I left with my purse and a bag with my pajamas in it.
I knew that day that I had nothing to lose and everything to gain.
I left behind abuse, chaos, dysfunction, emotional and physical pain, and pieces of my broken heart.
I knew that I would not be able to do anything on my own but only with the Lord's help. He has provided my physical needs.
My relationship with my boys is being built on THE ROCK and not on shifting sand. I don't see them all the time but we do talk on the phone. I love them fiercely and I know that they love me.
I have gained the knowledge of what I don't want in my life and will not settle for anything less. I don't want to be married to or date an active alcoholic. I don't want to be with someone that is incapable of giving me the love and emotional intimacy that I desire. I have let him go completely and look forward to the day when the Lord places someone in my life that is right for me.
I have gained so much love. The Lord has blessed me with a wonderful pastor and wife and with an awesome church family. I have gained another Al-Anon family and a meeting a few miles down the road from me and such an understanding sponsor.
I have gained the ability to enjoy life again. I enjoy time out with friends. I can smile and laugh again. I can finally SLEEP again.
I have gained the confidence to make good decisions for myself even if I go back and forth for a minute until I get there. I am enrolled in a medical office assistant program starting next month, to refresh my skills and knowledge of the degree I got in medical specialist 20 years ago but never used. After that I will go out and get a job! I have a long way to go still but I have come so far in a year. A year ago I could not visualize what freedom looked like. I love it here.
For those still in the misery of an alcoholic relationship or marriage, you can get out. It's hard and scary at first but oh so worth it in the end.
Sue
I knew that day that I had nothing to lose and everything to gain.
I left behind abuse, chaos, dysfunction, emotional and physical pain, and pieces of my broken heart.
I knew that I would not be able to do anything on my own but only with the Lord's help. He has provided my physical needs.
My relationship with my boys is being built on THE ROCK and not on shifting sand. I don't see them all the time but we do talk on the phone. I love them fiercely and I know that they love me.
I have gained the knowledge of what I don't want in my life and will not settle for anything less. I don't want to be married to or date an active alcoholic. I don't want to be with someone that is incapable of giving me the love and emotional intimacy that I desire. I have let him go completely and look forward to the day when the Lord places someone in my life that is right for me.
I have gained so much love. The Lord has blessed me with a wonderful pastor and wife and with an awesome church family. I have gained another Al-Anon family and a meeting a few miles down the road from me and such an understanding sponsor.
I have gained the ability to enjoy life again. I enjoy time out with friends. I can smile and laugh again. I can finally SLEEP again.
I have gained the confidence to make good decisions for myself even if I go back and forth for a minute until I get there. I am enrolled in a medical office assistant program starting next month, to refresh my skills and knowledge of the degree I got in medical specialist 20 years ago but never used. After that I will go out and get a job! I have a long way to go still but I have come so far in a year. A year ago I could not visualize what freedom looked like. I love it here.
For those still in the misery of an alcoholic relationship or marriage, you can get out. It's hard and scary at first but oh so worth it in the end.
Sue
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