Therapist's Advice and Confusion Over Detaching
j enniferlynn.....the answer to that question is examined, specifically, in the book---"The Saber Toothed Tiger"......
It is a fast easy read...written by a therapist who has worked extensively with abused women......But, ypu don't have to be abused to benefit from this book.....
dandylion
It is a fast easy read...written by a therapist who has worked extensively with abused women......But, ypu don't have to be abused to benefit from this book.....
dandylion
Bluelily,
So much of what you've written resonates with me. I *wish* he'd just end things. It would make my life so much easier. But I am wise enough to realize that will never happen. He's too busy using and manipulating me to simply let me go.
A friend of mine is staying in Paris for a few months and invited me for a visit. I'm working with my employer now to see if I can arrange to take a week off to take her up on it. I have a number of unused airmiles and as long as I can arrange for my flight soon it will cost me a "whopping" $88! A once in a lifetime opportunity to be sure! As long as I can find someone to watch the boys (my kitties) I'm definitely going to do it! When I mentioned it to him last weekend he about went apesh$& on me. Like it was a horrible thing to request some time off of work for me to go enjoy some culture, spend some time with a friend and take a much needed and long overdue break. Honestly, I don't care what he thinks. Unless my boss says I can't go, I'll be going! Let's be honest about why he's REALLY ticked about me doing this though: I won't be around for a week for him to use and abuse.
Tonight I realized: I want him out of my life. I shared stories with a woman at a salon I go to who shared with me that her brother died of a heroin overdose. It was a sad story, but all too familiar, and she told me "Honestly, given the way he lived his life, he's better off where he is now." I could relate.
He called me after work. The conversation started nicely enough. But then I felt/heard the shift. We went from him telling me about his day to him ignoring me as I told him about mine. The snide comments began to creep in, and I realized: he was cleaning up his place as he was talking to me ... and he was drinking. I excused myself from the call and said goodnight.
Then my cats curled up on my lap as I pet them contentedly and watched a TV program I'd recorded. They were at peace. I was at peace in this new home I've created for us. And I was reminded of honeypig's "out of the briar patch" post. It's time for me to crawl out of mine. It's going to take a bit of time to figure out the best way for me to do that. But it's time. I'm tired of this rude, condescending jerk ruining my peace.
Thank you for letting me ramble and for your continued support...all of you.
So much of what you've written resonates with me. I *wish* he'd just end things. It would make my life so much easier. But I am wise enough to realize that will never happen. He's too busy using and manipulating me to simply let me go.
A friend of mine is staying in Paris for a few months and invited me for a visit. I'm working with my employer now to see if I can arrange to take a week off to take her up on it. I have a number of unused airmiles and as long as I can arrange for my flight soon it will cost me a "whopping" $88! A once in a lifetime opportunity to be sure! As long as I can find someone to watch the boys (my kitties) I'm definitely going to do it! When I mentioned it to him last weekend he about went apesh$& on me. Like it was a horrible thing to request some time off of work for me to go enjoy some culture, spend some time with a friend and take a much needed and long overdue break. Honestly, I don't care what he thinks. Unless my boss says I can't go, I'll be going! Let's be honest about why he's REALLY ticked about me doing this though: I won't be around for a week for him to use and abuse.
Tonight I realized: I want him out of my life. I shared stories with a woman at a salon I go to who shared with me that her brother died of a heroin overdose. It was a sad story, but all too familiar, and she told me "Honestly, given the way he lived his life, he's better off where he is now." I could relate.
He called me after work. The conversation started nicely enough. But then I felt/heard the shift. We went from him telling me about his day to him ignoring me as I told him about mine. The snide comments began to creep in, and I realized: he was cleaning up his place as he was talking to me ... and he was drinking. I excused myself from the call and said goodnight.
Then my cats curled up on my lap as I pet them contentedly and watched a TV program I'd recorded. They were at peace. I was at peace in this new home I've created for us. And I was reminded of honeypig's "out of the briar patch" post. It's time for me to crawl out of mine. It's going to take a bit of time to figure out the best way for me to do that. But it's time. I'm tired of this rude, condescending jerk ruining my peace.
Thank you for letting me ramble and for your continued support...all of you.
Okay, how does this sound.
" Hi. It's me. Look I'm going to keep this short because I really don't want an argument, and this isn't something that's up for discussion. I've been thinking about how our relationship is going, and to be completely honest, it isn't something that is makes me feel any kind of happiness or security any more. I do still care about you as a friend, and wish you well, but it would be irresponsible of me to carry on being in contact with you because I have to look after myself. Just like you have to look after yourself. After all we are adults. "
And no. He won't like it. But there is no real happy way to end a relationship. As long as it's done in an honest way, and with as little mud-slinging as possible, that's all you can do.
Obviously if he has stuff round at your place, maybe drop it round before you make the call, or make arrangements for it to be held somewhere away from you. And be ready to block his number and Facebook etc.
" Hi. It's me. Look I'm going to keep this short because I really don't want an argument, and this isn't something that's up for discussion. I've been thinking about how our relationship is going, and to be completely honest, it isn't something that is makes me feel any kind of happiness or security any more. I do still care about you as a friend, and wish you well, but it would be irresponsible of me to carry on being in contact with you because I have to look after myself. Just like you have to look after yourself. After all we are adults. "
And no. He won't like it. But there is no real happy way to end a relationship. As long as it's done in an honest way, and with as little mud-slinging as possible, that's all you can do.
Obviously if he has stuff round at your place, maybe drop it round before you make the call, or make arrangements for it to be held somewhere away from you. And be ready to block his number and Facebook etc.
He called me after work. The conversation started nicely enough. But then I felt/heard the shift. We went from him telling me about his day to him ignoring me as I told him about mine. The snide comments began to creep in, and I realized: he was cleaning up his place as he was talking to me ... and he was drinking. I excused myself from the call and said goodnight.
Its important to recognize that alcohol is not solely at the core of his issues. Alcoholism doesn't make someone disinterested in speaking about another life, sharing things, being interested in things other than themselves (if they are a deep level alcoholic that is drunk 24/7 that's a different situation). You might also be dealing with a personality disorder, or mental issues. If so these won't change easily, if ever. If you get tired of him talking about himself all the time, being disinterested in your life, and making snide comments to you about you, or things you want to do that's not alcohol, that's all him. "Its all about me" seems to be a theme here. YAWN.
Its important to recognize that alcohol is not solely at the core of his issues. Alcoholism doesn't make someone disinterested in speaking about another life, sharing things, being interested in things other than themselves (if they are a deep level alcoholic that is drunk 24/7 that's a different situation). You might also be dealing with a personality disorder, or mental issues. If so these won't change easily, if ever. If you get tired of him talking about himself all the time, being disinterested in your life, and making snide comments to you about you, or things you want to do that's not alcohol, that's all him. "Its all about me" seems to be a theme here. YAWN.
Its important to recognize that alcohol is not solely at the core of his issues. Alcoholism doesn't make someone disinterested in speaking about another life, sharing things, being interested in things other than themselves (if they are a deep level alcoholic that is drunk 24/7 that's a different situation). You might also be dealing with a personality disorder, or mental issues. If so these won't change easily, if ever. If you get tired of him talking about himself all the time, being disinterested in your life, and making snide comments to you about you, or things you want to do that's not alcohol, that's all him. "Its all about me" seems to be a theme here. YAWN.
Okay, how does this sound.
" Hi. It's me. Look I'm going to keep this short because I really don't want an argument, and this isn't something that's up for discussion. I've been thinking about how our relationship is going, and to be completely honest, it isn't something that is makes me feel any kind of happiness or security any more. I do still care about you as a friend, and wish you well, but it would be irresponsible of me to carry on being in contact with you because I have to look after myself. Just like you have to look after yourself. After all we are adults. "
And no. He won't like it. But there is no real happy way to end a relationship. As long as it's done in an honest way, and with as little mud-slinging as possible, that's all you can do.
Obviously if he has stuff round at your place, maybe drop it round before you make the call, or make arrangements for it to be held somewhere away from you. And be ready to block his number and Facebook etc.
" Hi. It's me. Look I'm going to keep this short because I really don't want an argument, and this isn't something that's up for discussion. I've been thinking about how our relationship is going, and to be completely honest, it isn't something that is makes me feel any kind of happiness or security any more. I do still care about you as a friend, and wish you well, but it would be irresponsible of me to carry on being in contact with you because I have to look after myself. Just like you have to look after yourself. After all we are adults. "
And no. He won't like it. But there is no real happy way to end a relationship. As long as it's done in an honest way, and with as little mud-slinging as possible, that's all you can do.
Obviously if he has stuff round at your place, maybe drop it round before you make the call, or make arrangements for it to be held somewhere away from you. And be ready to block his number and Facebook etc.
Its important to recognize that alcohol is not solely at the core of his issues. Alcoholism doesn't make someone disinterested in speaking about another life, sharing things, being interested in things other than themselves (if they are a deep level alcoholic that is drunk 24/7 that's a different situation). You might also be dealing with a personality disorder, or mental issues. If so these won't change easily, if ever. If you get tired of him talking about himself all the time, being disinterested in your life, and making snide comments to you about you, or things you want to do that's not alcohol, that's all him. "Its all about me" seems to be a theme here. YAWN.
I'm thinking so too! LOL I can honestly say ABF has never told me that he doesn't answer questions or anything of that nature. It sucks that he treated you that way. And it seems like narcissism plays a role in this for many...
I remember those days...The only times that my XAH tolerated me talking about issues that concerned me, or about my day, were when he could turn the conversations into mini self-improvement courses. "Do you see why I hate when you do that?" It was if I was one of his restoration projects.
I remember those days...The only times that my XAH tolerated me talking about issues that concerned me, or about my day, were when he could turn the conversations into mini self-improvement courses. "Do you see why I hate when you do that?" It was if I was one of his restoration projects.
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Beccybean's post as usual is spot on...the only thing you might want to reconsider is, "I still care about you as a friend," because to an addict that's a loophole they can drive a truck through to continue as usual, and second...is it true? Do you really want this guy around as a friend or anything else?
Maybe you'll need that to sugar coat things, you know him...
Maybe you'll need that to sugar coat things, you know him...
Yeah. I wondered about that as well - even with the bit after saying no contact, he might just latch onto that friend bit. Maybe it should have been more, although in an ideal world I WOULD have liked to continue to be friends. ..??
We went from him telling me about his day to him ignoring me as I told him about mine.
This happened over the course of years, JL. Years. And never once did I think "gee, I wouldn't accept that kind of treatment from other people--why is it OK if my husband does it?"
At this point, I'm sure you're not shocked to see that you're not the only one who's been treated this way. And, related to alcohol or not, it is NOT an acceptable way for one person to treat another, as I've finally learned to see.
It would be unlike me to not say I still care about him. Because I do. Just not enough to give up my standards, my morals, my dreams, etc. so maybe just leave the friend part out and say I still care?
Maybe just leave it off and say that this has come to a place that it's just not good for YOU. Take the focus off of him and put it on you and your own feelings b/c that is what you are going to have to work through.
Honestly, once he realizes what you are saying he is going to be a jerk and stop listening anyways. He will instead be thinking of what he is going to say to manipulate you. What will you do about it?
Honestly, once he realizes what you are saying he is going to be a jerk and stop listening anyways. He will instead be thinking of what he is going to say to manipulate you. What will you do about it?
JL, one of the things that happened regularly w/XAH and I was that I'd tell him about something. Not something necessarily of earth-shaking importance, but just the kind of day-to-day exchanges you have with friends and family. When I'd make reference to this thing later (an hour, a day, a week), he'd stare at me blankly. I'd say "I told you about this, remember?" and immediately he'd get defensive and snide. The go-to response from him was "well, I guess it just wasn't important enough for me to commit to memory." The alternate excuse was "well, you talk so much, how am I supposed to know what's important and what's not?"
And you're right. It's unacceptable. Anyone in a relationship, friends, lovers, whatever...should give a damn enough about the other person to listen and share and show they care. We are all entitled to that at a *bare* minimum!
Maybe just leave it off and say that this has come to a place that it's just not good for YOU. Take the focus off of him and put it on you and your own feelings b/c that is what you are going to have to work through.
Honestly, once he realizes what you are saying he is going to be a jerk and stop listening anyways. He will instead be thinking of what he is going to say to manipulate you. What will you do about it?
Honestly, once he realizes what you are saying he is going to be a jerk and stop listening anyways. He will instead be thinking of what he is going to say to manipulate you. What will you do about it?
As far as how I'm going to react to his reaction? Good question. I'm not sure how he'll react. I'm hoping that he'll just be pissed and won't say anything. It would be a lot easier on me that way, truth be told. If he tries to start an argument, I'm thinking my best bet is just to say that I've said what I had to say and there's nothing more to discuss and shut him down (which seems cruel...but I'm not sure I have any other option). I'm open to others' thoughts and ideas here I'd rather be "over prepped" for the situation than under when it rolls around ...
As far as how I'm going to react to his reaction? Good question. I'm not sure how he'll react. I'm hoping that he'll just be pissed and won't say anything. It would be a lot easier on me that way, truth be told. If he tries to start an argument, I'm thinking my best bet is just to say that I've said what I had to say and there's nothing more to discuss and shut him down (which seems cruel...but I'm not sure I have any other option). I'm open to others' thoughts and ideas here I'd rather be "over prepped" for the situation than under when it rolls around ...
All those distractions would draw me in to defend myself & then he'd walk away declaring ME crazy. I learned that this was really just engaging with him. He'd needle & I would stop & say something like "Are you trying to tell me how *I* feel?... because this is about ME not YOU" or "We're not talking about YOU right now." or something to that effect. But that's only something that works since we've both been in recovery & since he's been developing patience & new ears.
Good luck. My best advice is be prepared for him to hear absolutely none of what you have to say, honestly. Know that you're doing it FOR YOU to be able to say that you "tried everything" (or whatever) & have zero expectations attached to the outcome.
I think you nailed it, FireSprite. I just need to be able to say that I did everything I could for *ME* to find the peace that *I* deserve.
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As always, FS gives great advice. In the 96442654 conversations my STBXAH and I have had about me preparing to leave, me leaving, and the fact that I actually left, he almost always asks me why I left. I tell him, honestly, why. He always responds with "well, you did this and this and this and that, and you are horrible, too." And I shut it down with "but we are not talking about why YOU left ME. We are talking about why I left YOU."
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