Butterfly

What mine use to do when I replied to his texts like that was then pull away. It was as if he was testing the waters to see my response, would I say I want my life with him or not. If I did he'd tell me he wants to be on his own and can't doesn't want to stop drinking. It was a game.

Timetoheal12

Oh, that sounds exactly like him... He did this many times before, or it was with that intention. I guess he just wanted to see if he still had me there, waiting for him or something. It is a shame to see how repetitive this things are, when one wants to believe they really do love or care about you.

fluffyflea

Aaahhhhhhhh run run. Don't reply.

fluffyflea

It's manipulation.

maybear

Definitely just ignore him.

Not an apology, just throwing you some crumbs to see whether you will bite.

That is also probably the reason why you feel down - a reminder of all that he is not that you wished he was, and it is a knock to your self esteem that all he can give you in a lame text apology. But in a way, it is reinforcing what you already know about him and that there have been no changes. So you can be assured that you are on the right path.

His actions are in no way a reflection on how much you are worth.

You deserve better.

NYCDoglvr

Alcoholics tend to try to hang on to enablers. I would block his number, no reason he should live rent-free in your head.

Timetoheal12

Thank you. Everyone here has been good to me. And it is great to know that I can reach out to you at times were I would have normally just "succumbed" to my feelings towards him.
Also, it is true. I feel sad when I swe how much he's changed and it's only been two years since I met him.
I still love him to a point and miss the good times, but I guess I really do deserve better...

Thanks for all your replies