eyeoftheholder

I feel conned my XAB drew me in like a black widow spider
First he empathised with a similar thing what happened to me about I lost a friend because she was lying to me !
He said he'd had friends like that.
Then he smothered me with attention phone calls all the time
Texts all the time
Cooking me meals staying in his home over weekends
Giving me tight hugs and kisses
Then something happened
I loved him
Prey landed
Now I can ignore her
Not return one text
Back off and be the ruthless alcoholic Iam
He was so loving
Abandons me
You was just a f&(k love
Thanks

eyeoftheholder

As soon as I tried to show my love
Bang wallop ( Not physically ) I then became history
I have to love myself first always and always get a man to earn his place with me not by just making me a few meals.
I had low standards now it's time to raise the bar!
Loving me <3

SparkleKitty

The more you let it out, allow yourself to feel your feelings, and work towards shifting the focus on you and treating yourself with respect and love, the further in your rear view mirror he will go. You're on the right road. Just keep driving!

Refiner

Eye at least you recognize what's going on and can learn from it and move on. I call that "c'mere and go away".

eyeoftheholder

It does make you angry though Thankyou sparkle kitty
I want to punch him right now
I'm not the violent type lol
I hadn't had a boyfriend since 2003
I had one that only lasted 3 months and he was major controlling!
Then I met the alcoholic He knew I'd had a bad time
I stayed home for 10 yrs no boyfriend then I lost 130 pounds by gastric bypass
Then cryed for 6 weeks now when this alcoholic destroyed me
He only drank at night but didn't stop!
His excuse he had been also in the love wilderness
Oh only for 1 year though He,s had women and probably disrespected them
He doesn't even speak to his own mother or sister
I never stood a chance.

eyeoftheholder

Alarm
It's the codependant pity party

firebolt

You are in the right place - and I agree with sparkle kitty. You are on the right road, you SEE it for what it was. That is half the battle!

eyeoftheholder

Sorry but he would sit in front of me very close up with his guitar and play it while drunk and sing to me in his kitchen
He did everything to obtain my heart
What did he get out of this
Validation that he's loveable maybe
I'm finding it hard to get my head around this
Is he just sick
I don't know
I'm feeling violated.
IM FEELING EMOTIONALLY RAPED
I know there's bad in the world and people suffer illness and terrible things!
I just need to man up.

eyeoftheholder

I proved to him I was always there for him taking his calls and texts and coming to his house but it was all on his terms
Everything.
The moment I wanted something like a text
I became the intense one so he said.
It all set my anxiety off he made me very ill.