My mistakes
My mistakes
31 year and 3 times I stood by him as he struggled with alcohol. We had 3 great kids last one still in HS. 2 times he kicked it this time I fear alcohol is going to win. I screwed up 3 big times in the last 4 years, in my thought processes I can forgive myself.
The 1st time after 6-8 months of being treated worst than a poo on your shoes, he calls and tries to tell me he needs help, well I let him down I was so angry at him. He never forgave me I have tried over and over to make it up.
2nd time I stopped counseling with him because I couldn't keep going and hearing how I was all screwed up. It was always about what was wrong with me. I think he never forgave me for that.
The third time was this past week - after walking on eggs shells all day and having more of my stuff thrown out I got mad and started throwing out some of his stuff. (Yeah I forced a confrontation, but I was tired of him throwing his weight around) well he got mad real quick and got in my face and told me "if you were a man I would kick your butt" well after leaving I posted on fb(bad ideal but I was a little tired of it all) "oh the joy of living with a drunk"- ah did see it and again viewed it as a major betrayal again. Yes I deleted it not long after I put it out.
Unfortunately in his eyes I am evil to do those thing and he is absolved right away. I would still like to try to fight for our marriage but at this point I don't know what I can do.
The 1st time after 6-8 months of being treated worst than a poo on your shoes, he calls and tries to tell me he needs help, well I let him down I was so angry at him. He never forgave me I have tried over and over to make it up.
2nd time I stopped counseling with him because I couldn't keep going and hearing how I was all screwed up. It was always about what was wrong with me. I think he never forgave me for that.
The third time was this past week - after walking on eggs shells all day and having more of my stuff thrown out I got mad and started throwing out some of his stuff. (Yeah I forced a confrontation, but I was tired of him throwing his weight around) well he got mad real quick and got in my face and told me "if you were a man I would kick your butt" well after leaving I posted on fb(bad ideal but I was a little tired of it all) "oh the joy of living with a drunk"- ah did see it and again viewed it as a major betrayal again. Yes I deleted it not long after I put it out.
Unfortunately in his eyes I am evil to do those thing and he is absolved right away. I would still like to try to fight for our marriage but at this point I don't know what I can do.
cricket, he threw you out of the house!!! he threatened to do you harm!
I would still like to try to fight for our marriage but at this point I don't know what I can do.
i'm just gonna be blunt and ask......
WHAT MARRIAGE???
I would still like to try to fight for our marriage but at this point I don't know what I can do.
i'm just gonna be blunt and ask......
WHAT MARRIAGE???
I can't see any big mistakes in your actions except for blaming yourself. The guy abused you and tried to convince you it was your fault. Nothing in what you have written suggests you have any blame in this. (((((((Hugs))))))))
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