Talking myself to sleep...
 

I'm afraid to shut my eyes and just be quiet with myself because I'm so tired and I'm just gonna start crying.

- Why don't you want to cry?

I want to be strong. I want to be happy. I don't want to feel bad. If I'm "busy" with the computer open, then I won't have to be quiet with my thoughts. I hate my thoughts about all this late at night. :-(

- Awww. Well, you're already crying now, so what's next?

Maybe I can just get under the covers and let myself cry more.

- That sounds like a good idea, hun. And look, your cat just came in to keep you company!

He's great for snuggling.

- Sweet dreams, ShineBright. You'll feel better in the morning. I'm so proud of you for taking care of yourself.

<3

Hang tight girlie

It's always darkest before the dawn-




Thinking of you-

Hugs

I think you are very good for yourself. And you have a kitty looking out for your welfare, too.

Hugs,

Thanks, Lexi. ((hugs))

I got some tears on my cat and then sobbed into the pillows for a while and finally fell asleep. I didn't sleep well, though, and I had horrible dreams. For the last several nights I've had bad dreams -- two that I woke up crying from. Guess my subconscious is all stirred up right now.

Maybe I can take a nap today. I gave my work a generous time frame on the project I'm supposed to be working on because I know that every day I don't have 8 straight hours of functionality available to me with my emotions and exhaustion being what they are, but I'm definitely going to have get that project done...so I hope I can pace myself. <sigh>

Free - Your quoting that song made me smile. Thank you. <3

When I left my x, I had horrible nightmares. I had never had them before so I figured it was just part of the process. Haven't had them since. It gets a little better every day and before you know it BAM he no longer gets space in your head.

Love on your kitty, that's what they are there for. :)