Something a Little More Positive and Filled With Gratitude
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Something a Little More Positive and Filled With Gratitude
Hello, my SR Family:
I joined this site just before New Years because of my AXBF, with whom I share a 6 year old son. I'm not going to go into detail about that, because this post is not about him. It's about YOU GUYS.
I have noticed a great change in myself since talking with you all. At first I was sad and depressed, and I just so wanted him to be sober so we could have a normal family life for our son. I thought I was all alone in ym confusion and pain, and I questioned whether I was sane, or if I was really being abused, or if I should stick it out, hoping that he really would change THIS TIME. Well, he didn't, and he won't. I learned this from reading all of your posts.
I have been on an extreme emotional roller coaster this week. I think a lot of that has to do with this forum. I don't have a computer where my son and I currently live (ALONE! WITH OUT THAT A-HOLE!). I found myself getting really sad about what I thought SHOULD be. Once I was able to spend time here with all of you, I felt MUCH better. Still bitter, still angry...but that's good, because it strengthens my resolve to keep him the eff out of my life, and my son's life.
Sometimes I get frustrated with newbies, because I have come so far, and I see their struggle and just want to tell them what their future holds. Then I remember when I first joined, and how I was taken aback by some responses I received. I try to remember that when talking with new people.
Anyway, I'm about to leave work...but I just wanted to thank each and every one of you. You have helped me more than you'll know, and I am extremely grateful to have found this forum.
Love to ALL!!!!!
Renee
I joined this site just before New Years because of my AXBF, with whom I share a 6 year old son. I'm not going to go into detail about that, because this post is not about him. It's about YOU GUYS.
I have noticed a great change in myself since talking with you all. At first I was sad and depressed, and I just so wanted him to be sober so we could have a normal family life for our son. I thought I was all alone in ym confusion and pain, and I questioned whether I was sane, or if I was really being abused, or if I should stick it out, hoping that he really would change THIS TIME. Well, he didn't, and he won't. I learned this from reading all of your posts.
I have been on an extreme emotional roller coaster this week. I think a lot of that has to do with this forum. I don't have a computer where my son and I currently live (ALONE! WITH OUT THAT A-HOLE!). I found myself getting really sad about what I thought SHOULD be. Once I was able to spend time here with all of you, I felt MUCH better. Still bitter, still angry...but that's good, because it strengthens my resolve to keep him the eff out of my life, and my son's life.
Sometimes I get frustrated with newbies, because I have come so far, and I see their struggle and just want to tell them what their future holds. Then I remember when I first joined, and how I was taken aback by some responses I received. I try to remember that when talking with new people.
Anyway, I'm about to leave work...but I just wanted to thank each and every one of you. You have helped me more than you'll know, and I am extremely grateful to have found this forum.
Love to ALL!!!!!
Renee
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