Jane11

I'm just fed up today and thinking about everything

I'm fed up that I met someone I wanted to be with but his addiction and behaviour means it's impossible

I'm fed up of hearing that he's recovering and misses me terribly but he won't do anything about it (rehab/AA etc) he just wants to do it alone

I'm fed up of where I live

I'm fed up of not being near the few friends I have

I'm fed up of not having a job as I used to work so hard (realise probably to an unhealthy point) but now all I do is sit in

I'm fed up of not even having any direction in life anymore

I'm fed up of being alone and feeling alone

I'm fed up of just wanting to find a nice man I can have a life with

I'm fed up of feeling like a total disappointment to myself and others

I'm fed up of pretending to others that I'm ok when I'm not

I'm fed up of others (apart from here) not understanding I can't just get over it and get on with life

I'm fed up of feeling tired, down, not even wanting to get out of bed

I'm fed up of feeling I have nothing to get out of bed for

I'm fed up of just being fed up

Sorry, just needed to vent.

catlovermi

FED UP means you're angry.

This is good.

Angry means somewhere inside you there is enough self worth and self respect to get angry, that things aren't as they should be, for you.

Anger doesn't feel good. But it is an indicator that there is self worth left, and a desire to correct it!

Vent away, we're listening!

Hugs,
CLMI

Jane11

Thank you catlover

The anger/fed up ness has now turned to tears- tears of anger? Tears of sadness? Both? I'm not sure.

But what you said is maybe what I needed to hear so I thank you.

All is not well, I want it to be different...now I just have to find the will and the way to make it so.

It means so much that there are people here who will just let me vent and even better come back with words of kindness and comfort. This place is amazing.

Seren

Hi Jane,

I agree with catlover and also find myself in a similar spot in my life.

I have a situation (not a relationship) with which I am fed up--completely!

It's deciding what to do with that feeling/situation that needs some effort and energy right now, right? I get it!

You are very much worth that effort and energy, Jane!

suncatcher

I'm fed up too. I feel like I spend so much time and energy helping someone who relies on me to be there for him. This person is my AXBF/ friend. He's in the hospital for another surgery. His ankle this time. I know if the shoe were on the other foot he wouldn't spend 48 hours straight with me if I was hospitalized. I am trying to find healthy boundaries for myself. Jane11, I think being fed up leads to positive changes! Just wanted you to know you are not alone. Thanks for letting me vent along with you

Katchie

Jane, I'm fed up too...glad to know I'm not in the fed up boat alone! HUGS friend!