A tribute and comfort from Mike
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A tribute and comfort from Mike
*I came across this post from Mike that I thought applies to several threads posted recently. So, in tribute to Mike I thought I would repost it.
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Fear!
I have lived most of my life in some form of fear.
Fear of my alcoholic father, his emotional abandonment and his anger.
Fear of my mother, a codie queen and her emotional manipulation.
Fear of disappointing others, fear of losing what few friends I had.
Fear of my alcoholic wife, that I was losing her, that I was losing her love.
Fear of failure, of being judged by others.
Fear of success because if you do succeed you will be judged even harder and the fall is even farther.
Fear of making real friends because everyone you care about ends up abandoning you.
Fear of being alone because how can I live without someone else to validate my existence.
Fear! was the driving force in my life.
What I found was my program.
One by one I an learning to let go of my fears.
Each of the steps I have taken helps me on my path of liberation.
To let go of my need to control.
To let go of my need to feel better by judging others.
To let go of judging success by what I own or how much I make.
To let go of my self judging and self doubt. That not only is it OK to fail but without failure there is no growth.
To trust my higher power whatever it may be. That I can draw on strength and compassion from a source that isn't my ego. That in fact my ego is the primary source of my fear.
What I have found inside me is me. Someone I can love and who loves me back. Someone strong and wise, who can see the fear for what it is and let it go. A me who sees me as I really am, not as I see me and judge me, not as others see and judge me.
This journey has been long and scary and wonderful. I look forward to where it will take me. Everything that has happened to me needed to happen exactly the way it did.
I share this to let others know the the program works! That serenity can be found and there is a place of strength and peace within all of us and that place can be found and that it slowly becomes the standard by which we measure our lives.
I still have a long way to go and I still find fear rearing it's ugly head but now I know that fear can faced and beaten and I am no longer afraid of fear.
Your friend,
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Mike
Sanity is giving up the illusion of control.
Happiness is letting go of the past.
Serenity is just being me.
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Fear!
I have lived most of my life in some form of fear.
Fear of my alcoholic father, his emotional abandonment and his anger.
Fear of my mother, a codie queen and her emotional manipulation.
Fear of disappointing others, fear of losing what few friends I had.
Fear of my alcoholic wife, that I was losing her, that I was losing her love.
Fear of failure, of being judged by others.
Fear of success because if you do succeed you will be judged even harder and the fall is even farther.
Fear of making real friends because everyone you care about ends up abandoning you.
Fear of being alone because how can I live without someone else to validate my existence.
Fear! was the driving force in my life.
What I found was my program.
One by one I an learning to let go of my fears.
Each of the steps I have taken helps me on my path of liberation.
To let go of my need to control.
To let go of my need to feel better by judging others.
To let go of judging success by what I own or how much I make.
To let go of my self judging and self doubt. That not only is it OK to fail but without failure there is no growth.
To trust my higher power whatever it may be. That I can draw on strength and compassion from a source that isn't my ego. That in fact my ego is the primary source of my fear.
What I have found inside me is me. Someone I can love and who loves me back. Someone strong and wise, who can see the fear for what it is and let it go. A me who sees me as I really am, not as I see me and judge me, not as others see and judge me.
This journey has been long and scary and wonderful. I look forward to where it will take me. Everything that has happened to me needed to happen exactly the way it did.
I share this to let others know the the program works! That serenity can be found and there is a place of strength and peace within all of us and that place can be found and that it slowly becomes the standard by which we measure our lives.
I still have a long way to go and I still find fear rearing it's ugly head but now I know that fear can faced and beaten and I am no longer afraid of fear.
Your friend,
__________________
Mike
Sanity is giving up the illusion of control.
Happiness is letting go of the past.
Serenity is just being me.
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Thanks for sharing. I wished I had gotten to know him (: So sad to hear about his loss, being only 60. Sounds like he spent his last few years recovering. You couldn't ask for a better way to live your last precious moments.
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Mike was an inspiration to so many of us. Yes, classy, he had made a huge move and was really working on recovery when he passed. The strength he showed in his decisions over the last year or so was so uplifting. He will be missed greatly here.
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The thread that shil references has been made a sticky in the "Best of SR" section of the forum. It's here http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...0221-fear.html for any who'd like to bookmark it for future reference. I know I surely will!
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