be gentle with yourself PLEASE!
 

My therapist said that to me today. My rants today were based on the fact that this is my second addict that I have been involved with. I yell at myself for not making a better choice. I love to look at myself and point out ALL my character flaws. I talk too much, I should think more before I speak, I should have known what I was getting into, I am the idiot sticking around, etc. ENOUGH!

I think it is important, during this journey, to remember that I am human! I am also an emotional human who craves the love, acceptance, and partnership with another human! My recovery is my own, but I still want love!! And not just from ME! Be gentle with yourself and know that I'm doing my BEST. I really really am trying so very hard to change my dysfunctional thinking processes. That's all I can do. That's all I have is my best. It HAS to be good enough for me or else I'm no better than the A I allow to tell me its not.

Just wanted to give you (((hugs))).