wellington1

So yesterday I felt a tower of strength. So today I don't. I've gone back to work and it's a quiet day. I had a sleepless night, I think the worry of everyone asking about the holiday and wondering why I'd been off sick...
I spoke to my boyfriend who sounds so low, but his words were " I'm grateful that today I've not picked up a drink". This period is the one I worry least that he will. It's happened, it was awful, he feels emotionally and physically c**p and it's fresh in his mind.
This week I've an appointment with occupational health, some counselling. I intend making an al anon meeting on Wednesday. The rest is a jumble of work, my horse... oh and I've a wedding to go to on Saturday which I am dreading on my own.
I've no idea what I'm going to do about my relationship but I'm hoping by stepping out and trying to figure out who I am again will give me guidence.
Is there anything else I can do guys? Do I do right?

Neagrm

Your roller coaster title says it all. It sounds like you're stepping up to the plate and taking care of you; that's great! Keep at it; never abandon yourself; good idea getting to an Al-Anon meeting. Hope you have yourself a good sponsor to be part of your cheering committee :-). Best wishes...