Just need some space
 

I was so panicking and dissociating today and going down that dark rabbit hole of yelling at God that, " if you really loved me you'd just take me!". I called the crisis hotline, I met with someone at the crisis center for 2 hours. Even though RAH is still sober (thank God), he is not a "safe" person right now. And since he's not working now is always home unless he's at a meeting or IOP. And it makes it all that much harder to try to process all my trauma and dissociation. I'm not ready for a divorce, but I know I need space. Just to a line for awhile. How long, I don't know. I can't figure out where to go. I could go to my parents but my dad isan aactie, neurotic A. My best friend lives with her son and husband in a 2 bedroom apartment. Just trying to figure it out.

I have no advice, but keep taking care of YOU. I will pray for you.

Thoughts and prayers coming your way! Glad you went and spoke w/them, that's great!

TerpGal....if you need a place to go...I suggest calling the domestic violence hotline.
So many people don't take advantage of this option because they don't think that they can.

dandylion