cherra

It's been three weeks since I've posted. I spent 7 wonderful days on the coast with my daughter and some other female family members. Girls week! Then school has been in session for the past two weeks. Can we say exhausted? I've finally come to the point of not really caring about my marriage any more. The man has had me on an emotional roller coaster. He wants to work it out and is sweet for days until he gets mad about something then he wants a divorce, so I tell him he can have his divorce. Then he gets all sweet again until something makes him mad and then he wants a divorce, so I tell him he can have his divorce. Then he ......... You get the picture. I told him yesterday I would call the attorney. Today he wants me to forgive him. I told him that in order to forgive him he needed to be sorry about something. What was he sorry about? I started listing the things he's done and said and it made him mad. I told him the only way I wouldn't call the attorney was if he'd agree to counselling. Looks like I'm making a phone call. I'm too emotionally spent to do this anymore. My daughter is in her apartment at college but really worried about me. I don't want her to. I'm still in a family members guest house and it's probably safer here than anywhere else. If you pray, say one for me tomorrow. Thanks

hopeful4

Praying. Many hugs.

Mags1

Thinking of you, cherra.

amy55

cherra,

I'm still here with you. ((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))). Also sending out prayers. I've been on that roller coaster that you are on. I needed to jump off of it also.

LastMistake

Your in my thoughts cherra. Take care of yourself

cherra

I did it! He's livid! And completely irrational!

amy55

Where are you cherra, are you safe, are you away from him?

amy55

Do you want to talk about things right now? I'm here, I can listen.

hopeful4

Here for you! Hugs!

amy55

cherra, you may not want to talk now, and you know what, that's OK. I know you will come back and read here or not, and that's ok. I'll just talk anyway, whether you come be back or not, but I think you will come back.

My daughter called me today, she filed divorce papers today. Her mind was numb. She just knew that she couldn't live the way that she was living anymore. She couldn't really even think of the past, the present, or the future, especially of the future. Or maybe she was, she was mostly incoherent, she just kept saying I want my nice little cute house. I don't want what I have now (she has a huge house). She just wanted to know what happy was, she didn't remember happy anymore.

I am asking you again, are you in a safe place? I worry for you, and I care about you a lot.

cherra

Im as safe as possible! Really jumpy. The dog keeps barking but I'll call my uncle if she doesn't stop. I'll check in tomorrow. I'm emotionally drained right now. Thanks to all of you!

amy55

Ok, cherra, goodnight, will check on you tomorrow. Remember I care.

cherra

I just wanted to let you know that I'm fine but didn't sleep well last night. I was real jumpy! Going to try to sleep tonight! Thanks for being here!

amy55

Just know that we are here for you when you need to talk. I care a lot about you and your daughter. Get some sleep and take care of yourself, OK, gn.