Blossom717

At church yesterday, in sunday school, we were discussing Spiritual Poverty.
At the end of the discussion, there were some topics, to see if you really accepted spiritual poverty, and we were to reflect on them with everyone.
two of them that got to me were:

1) Knowing what we are and are not responsible for
2) Accepting our badness and weaknesses as well as those as others

All day yesterday, even before sunday school, I was having anxiety. I thought I was going to black out during service (I have panic disorder) but I didn't. Thank goodness because I was by myself.

So needless to say, I was a little overwhelmed. When these two topics came up I immediately thought of my situation and I blurted out "If you just stop enabling them, they'll figure it out on their own!"

everyone stared for a second....I somehow forgot that not everyone is discussing A's when it comes to things like this. Whoops. No one said anything ,they are all pretty nice, just kept moving forward with the discussion.



later on my mother asked me if I was going to be emotionally okay when I leave my A. I laughed, I thought she was kidding. She just looked at me. I thought about it for a minute. I don't know if I will be, but I'm not emotionally okay now.

schnappi99

Ahh well they are only civilians, we have to cut them some slack

dandylion

Blossom----LOL! Being away from alcoholics and alcoholism, in general, brings about improvement in mental health!!

dandylion

lillamy

Exactly!!! And I agree with dandylion -- being with an alcoholic surely isn't going to improve your emotional wellbeing!!! (Psst: Wanna know a secret? You WILL be OK. )