Firefall

I believe this about my Higher Power
He is preparing me for what he has prepared for me.

My grandma (my saving grace) always told me "what doesn't kill ya, makes you stronger"

Both things are true for me.

jacrazz

Oh, the irony of that statement!

formyboys

I know that this disease is a life sucker...for everyone concerned. Ive watched it, rather quietly, demolish mine and my kids lives. I say quietly because my AXH was not an abusive obnoxious drunk. He was a functioning alcoholic who went to work every day...never missed a day and worked up to 80 hrs a week while slowly drinking himself to death (in his words) While there was no physical abuse the emotional part of it has been just as damaging.
I know from experience that the feeling of abandonment you get from an absentee parent is something you carry with you for the rest of your life. It is interesting to me that something I tried to avoid for my own children is exactly what I created for them, by my choices. And as much as he proclaims to be sober, the fact that I left the situation so our son would not have to grow up in that kind of environment, is what he will hate me for. Not one time in all these 4 years of sobriety he has, has he ever said "you did the right thing"...nope instead he says "you hauled ass when I needed you the most, and she likes me for who I am and doesn't try to change me" I allow him to load that guilt on me, and I allow my son to load his anger on me because im the safe one....I must have an awesomely strong back bone and just don't know it.

Bullfrog

I have no regrets, because of my two kids. They are the apple of my eye.

hopeful4

We are all so much stronger than we think! I do believe God puts us where we need to be, learning from the situation, protecting others, especially our kids, all sorts of things.

This disease does not have to suck your life away.

XXX