Trying to understand this disease more.
My concern is "choice" the alcoholic has which is my husband. He can make the choice not to drink on the nights he has VASAP, outpatient treatment, the next day and knows he has to blow into the ignition interlock to start his car. He chooses not to drink on Sundays when he goes to his AA meeting. ........... How can he make a choice not to drink on a certain day, but at the same time make a choice not to get sober.
Many alcoholics maintain this illusion of control (as another poster pointed out) for years until at some point in the later stages when they lose the power of "choice" to the physical dependency.
He asks if I will go walking with him this evening and I know why cause he doesn't want to drink tonight. This makes me feel like if I say no then he will drink. I'm not responsible for keeping him sober because I can't. Why do I feel like this.
I so agree with FS on her above post! Well said!
You know, regarding him wanting to go for a walk. The thing is, this is why they need a sponsor, and it cannot be you. Sure, you can encourage him to get help and encourage him not to drink. However, when he needs true help, keep me away from the booze type of help, he needs to have someone to reach out to that has experienced just this type of thing. You are much to close to the situation to be his support system, you need your own!
Good luck!
You know, regarding him wanting to go for a walk. The thing is, this is why they need a sponsor, and it cannot be you. Sure, you can encourage him to get help and encourage him not to drink. However, when he needs true help, keep me away from the booze type of help, he needs to have someone to reach out to that has experienced just this type of thing. You are much to close to the situation to be his support system, you need your own!
Good luck!
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Very true. I need to focus on my recovery and I thought at one point I was doing well and then I backslide back into my old ways. Up in his business again. I guess I need to work on not doing so much with him to help me. And it's the most difficult thing I've ever had to do. If I didn't love him so much even with all the pain and heartache he's given me. No wish I didn't care for him so much.
I understand that. Of course when you love someone you want them to recover, how could you not?!
Certainly you should still support his recovery as he should yours, you just cannot be in charge of it! Only you are the captain of your own ship.
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Certainly you should still support his recovery as he should yours, you just cannot be in charge of it! Only you are the captain of your own ship.
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It's easy to backslide in our recoveries when there is no active, earth-shattering drama isn't it?
So easy to get complacent when the urgency isn't there... but I have found that that is when I need it the MOST. Why? Because if/when the drama does cycle back up again I am coming from a stronger, healthier, solidly-anchored-in-my-recovery-point & I handle it all so much better. It's just like anything else - if your boat springs a leaky spot it's a heckuva lot easier to patch/fix it on dry land (preventative maintenance) than it is when you are out at sea taking on water. (crisis-survival mode) I can dig much deeper into the roots of my issues & that translates to longer-term healing for me as well.
((((HUGS)))) None of this is easy!
So easy to get complacent when the urgency isn't there... but I have found that that is when I need it the MOST. Why? Because if/when the drama does cycle back up again I am coming from a stronger, healthier, solidly-anchored-in-my-recovery-point & I handle it all so much better. It's just like anything else - if your boat springs a leaky spot it's a heckuva lot easier to patch/fix it on dry land (preventative maintenance) than it is when you are out at sea taking on water. (crisis-survival mode) I can dig much deeper into the roots of my issues & that translates to longer-term healing for me as well.
((((HUGS)))) None of this is easy!
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