Oddly content.
Oddly content.
It was a week last night since I last saw or spoke with my BF of almost 2.5 yrs. After having told him that I will never be ok with him drinking every night and telling him how much I love him, I got out of his truck and he drove away. He said nothing other than "I love you, too" and "Good night".
I was/am sad. But more than that, I am ok. I feel content. Free. And it feels strange. I think I should be feeling more, but I don't. And I don't know why. I love this man dearly. He is so very good to me in so many ways. I would love nothing more than to share my life with him. But he drinks. And I feel stronger about not having that in my life than I do about having him in it.
I almost feel bothered by the fact that I haven't cried at all other than while I was talking to him that night. That this past week I've smiled and joked and gone out with friends, slept soundly, gotten work done and have just felt.. free.
I'm sure it will hit me at some point, but for now, I am ok.
I was/am sad. But more than that, I am ok. I feel content. Free. And it feels strange. I think I should be feeling more, but I don't. And I don't know why. I love this man dearly. He is so very good to me in so many ways. I would love nothing more than to share my life with him. But he drinks. And I feel stronger about not having that in my life than I do about having him in it.
I almost feel bothered by the fact that I haven't cried at all other than while I was talking to him that night. That this past week I've smiled and joked and gone out with friends, slept soundly, gotten work done and have just felt.. free.
I'm sure it will hit me at some point, but for now, I am ok.
I almost feel bothered by the fact that I haven't cried at all other than while I was talking to him that night. That this past week I've smiled and joked and gone out with friends, slept soundly, gotten work done and have just felt.. free.
Glad I'm not the only one. I broke up with mine about 6 months ago. We lived together and had a child, but when I left him for good I was just over it. I think it's maybe because I spent so much of the time we were together crying. Like I did all of my mourning in advance or something.
Keep taking care of yourself and thanks for posting.
Glad I'm not the only one. I broke up with mine about 6 months ago. We lived together and had a child, but when I left him for good I was just over it. I think it's maybe because I spent so much of the time we were together crying. Like I did all of my mourning in advance or something.
Keep taking care of yourself and thanks for posting.
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I'm kind of feeling the same way right now. A lot of my anger is gone, and I feel like I can breathe. I just left my BF of 10 years last week. I'm staying at my Dad's for the time being. I haven't moved my stuff out yet but I feel like the bid is up. I also spent a lot of time crying BEFORE. Some after, but not much.
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Broken in pieces. Ditto for me. It's been a week and I just feel good! Happy. At peace. Like he whole world has opened up. It's word though as well. Makes me wonder was it really love or just some dysfunctional pull towards each other. Seriously I cried so much throughout the relationship and now when there should be tears there's none?? Confused about that as well
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