jzeb2008

I am bawling my eyes out reading these posts tonight. I'm feeling so much in a state right now that I'm actually beginning to find peace in my life. But, after 3 weeks of his being gone again and I'm doing the necessary things that I need to do to take care of myself and my children and put our needs above the WANTS of my addict, it keeps bringing up thought from the past about all of the red flags that I should've been aware of back then. Like most of you, we had our good times, too. But, as the disease progresses and I actually get better from the work that I've put into my own recovery, things become much more clear and the I am in tune to the manipulation. And the selfish fits. At this time, he is mad because I am living my life.