EmmyG

Wow, I am dealing with the emotions of finally separating from my AH and I've just spent the past hour reading through my old posts. WOW. It's really powerful to read through and remind myself of everything I've been through with him. So many bad times. I forget all of the incidents sometimes. Anyway, I'm going to use this board to help me get through. Reading my old posts, I see how many times I talked about leaving and being ready, only to be back a month or two later, complaining about another binge and his treatment of me. In one post I mention that I've just turned 30...I'm going to be 32 next month! And I'm still here, in the same situation. Another Christmas of pretending to be happy. My goal is to be in a better place next Christmas.

Seren

That's a very good goal, Emmy!

EmmyG

Thank you. I just sent an email to a realtor about an apartment and I made an appointment with a therapist. Yay! I can do this.

dandylion

every step brings you closer.....

dandylion

readerbaby71

Emmy, this post prompted me to read through my previous posts also. It's an excellent reminder that I need to take care of myself first and while I can forgive, not to forget the pain that my BF's behavior has caused me.

Stay strong--you're doing great, girl!

xo

m1k3

Your friend,

atalose

I always loved this:

Cinderella is proof that a new pair of shoes can change your life.

To new beginnings!!!!! Put on those new shoes and keep going forward……

honeypig

Emmy, I find that reading thru my old posts is so valuable also. It shows me where I've made progress as well as where I've remained stuck, repeating myself about the same problem.

Glad to hear it's serving a useful purpose for you too, and as others have said, congrats on putting that information to good use. Best wishes!