Understanding or accepting their inability to empathize/be sorry
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Understanding or accepting their inability to empathize/be sorry
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I'm in the process of a divorce from my AH, who while has made attempts at stopping drinking, goes back. Latest was about 2-3 weeks sober, and there were glimpses of some normalcy. Working on reminding myself no cause, my guess is he quit for me (not for himself), and after a few weeks realized that I wasn't going to forgive all so quickly, and said screw it might as well drink.
The divorce process includes child custody (we have one 3year old), alimony (me to him as a possibility), and split of assets, mostly retirement.
While I have many backsteps, I am getting close to accepting that he is not capable of feeling guilt. In my head, I would think a guilty party spouse would basically let the other spouse have the advantage in divorce. But that is how I think I would feel if I had done so many wrongs. And like I said, I guess he is not capable of that. And nevermind apologies. Ugh, guess just need to work through
[in counseling but don't attend Al anon]
I'm going to start a second thread about court stuff
I'm in the process of a divorce from my AH, who while has made attempts at stopping drinking, goes back. Latest was about 2-3 weeks sober, and there were glimpses of some normalcy. Working on reminding myself no cause, my guess is he quit for me (not for himself), and after a few weeks realized that I wasn't going to forgive all so quickly, and said screw it might as well drink.
The divorce process includes child custody (we have one 3year old), alimony (me to him as a possibility), and split of assets, mostly retirement.
While I have many backsteps, I am getting close to accepting that he is not capable of feeling guilt. In my head, I would think a guilty party spouse would basically let the other spouse have the advantage in divorce. But that is how I think I would feel if I had done so many wrongs. And like I said, I guess he is not capable of that. And nevermind apologies. Ugh, guess just need to work through
[in counseling but don't attend Al anon]
I'm going to start a second thread about court stuff
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I'm in a similar place, beginning stages of a divorce and all. I'm sorry you're going through this. It's truly awful sometimes. I have no wise words, as I'm having a helluva time accepting his total inability to empathize. Wishing you and your kid the best.
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This is of course true. He says/thinks that since I want the divorce, I need to pay / get screwed etc. I have read on here about the soft spot, and he's probably sometimes allowing himself to feel that his long-time soft spot for landing is going to be gone.
Oh, yes. I had to learn not to expect normal compassionate behavior from my (very recently) XAH. He's theoretically sober at the moment, and I'll admit I was expecting some kind of shift in his attitude leading up to our divorce. Maybe a small nod toward amends? Unlikely really. Didn't happen. Probably doesn't happen often during a divorce even when not dealing with an A.
I am no longer disappointed or devastated by our lack of civilty. His attitudes and behaviors are just datapoints now, facts that I observe and make mental notes on. Whatever his choices are now, they have nothing to do with me, even if he truly believes they are. I am convinced that he would be making the same choices regardless of who his wife was. They are not specific to ME, personally. So, I can't take anything he does personally.
It became easier for me to see this the more I detached from his choices and his consequences.
Wishing you peace,
Fathom
I am no longer disappointed or devastated by our lack of civilty. His attitudes and behaviors are just datapoints now, facts that I observe and make mental notes on. Whatever his choices are now, they have nothing to do with me, even if he truly believes they are. I am convinced that he would be making the same choices regardless of who his wife was. They are not specific to ME, personally. So, I can't take anything he does personally.
It became easier for me to see this the more I detached from his choices and his consequences.
Wishing you peace,
Fathom
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My divorce/custody started 1 year ago and I feel like I have gotten nowhere. It is so hard to accept that the person that I married (kind, loving, generous) turned into this angry, emotionally and financially abusive person with no empathy and wants to make my life miserable. This is all because I am no longer his enabler and he is angry. I am sorry that the disease stole your husband and the father of your child (I also have a 3 yr old). Peace to you!
Since I'm a recovering alcoholic (21 years) I know quite a bit about alcoholic. In AA's Big Book Bill Wilson describes alcoholics as self-centered, self-involved, and extremely immature. To an active alcoholic the ONLY thing that matters, his/her higher power, is booze. Essentially when we get sober and conscientiously work a program what we do is grow up and learn we're responsible.
So what you're experiencing is typical alcoholism without recovery.
So what you're experiencing is typical alcoholism without recovery.
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Since I'm a recovering alcoholic (21 years) I know quite a bit about alcoholic. In AA's Big Book Bill Wilson describes alcoholics as self-centered, self-involved, and extremely immature. To an active alcoholic the ONLY thing that matters, his/her higher power, is booze. Essentially when we get sober and conscientiously work a program what we do is grow up and learn we're responsible.
So what you're experiencing is typical alcoholism without recovery.
So what you're experiencing is typical alcoholism without recovery.
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