My son called...
 

....and he is homeless again. He got kicked out of the halfway house for fighting. He didn't ask and I didn't offer. I suggested he call his councellor at IOP.

I am sobbing, you guys. I feel like I am being crushed under the weight of it all. And I don't want to do this anymore.

I want off!!

Oh J.T.,

Just the grief alone is overwhelming. Your son can take care of himself. He has already proven that he can. It's summer and he won't be cold. It will be like camping.

It gets to the point when you have to let everything else go and protect yourself. You are at that point. It won't take you long to build your strength again. You need to take care of YOU right now.

Let everything else go until you are ok. A couple of months ago, I knew that just one more thing would have sent me to the nut ward. I had to stop everything and protect myself. It took a couple of weeks to regain my strength.

You are the most important person right now.

I love you,

MG

Guess what MG..this is the one more thing and I am on my way to the nut ward.

I have never once take my helmit off, it is full of dents!

I hate to say this on this board, but do you still have the pills that the Doctor gave you for sleep, Maybe one would take the edge off of all of this right now.

MG

And anxiety can make you feel like you've lost it. Stress can do amazing things to us physically and mentally.

Just tell yourself that you're ok , that this is just a natural symtom of stress and greif. Take deep slow breaths.

You're not there now, but I cry with you and pray for you with all my heart. I love you so much.

MG

I'm back..the pill is not a bad idea. Maybe tonite because I will need to sleep.

My H is pissed and said all the things that are going through my mind. Wipe our hands of him, concentrate on the GS. How dare he call here with that kind of news when we are going through so much, too? Selfish! Manipulative! Quack!

I think your post about protecting myself is right on the money and having contact with my son right now is not protecting myself. He can't stay with us because it will end badly and I am too fragile right now to deal with his kind of stuff. Me...ME...ME...I have to think about Me...

I rarely really cry..my H is worried about me...and angry because that is how men react. My reaction was due to being overwelmed...each thing, each large, add up to more than I can handle so something has got to go! (I am a logical thinker...can you tell?)

I have to think of me...my son is an adult...a low bottom drunk who has made his own choices. My falling apart will not change it.

Sounds good on paper (computer screen),right?

I think I have gotten off the roller coaster and gotten on a trampoline!

One foot in front of the other...but when was I issued lead boots?

Oh Thank God,

I knew I knew you. You are a lot like I am.

Love you,

MG

I am going to go and read a nonrecovery book...I am worn out! Maybe find those two jolly guys, Ben and Jerry.

Love ya MG and thank you for coming to the rescue...D.I.A. always lurking!

Whew! :D

PM MG

J.T.
You have been dealing with so much late-
ly that this is just the straw that
broke the camel's back. You are still
grieving for your grandson and his mother! I love these phone calls, don't
you, I just got one myself. My son is
on a drug-drunken rampage, and my daughter-in-law and grandkids fled to
her mothers. I know the only place for
him is jail, and I hate to admit that.
Today, I'm going to do some yard work,
and keep busy. I'm praying for God to
take care of this, and he will.
I feel you my sister, it does just keep
coming, keep the armor and helmet on!

Love,

Josie,
I'm sorry you have to go through this. I'm just feeling a little angry at these guys right now. They're not just quacking, they're throwing mud today.

Post anytime you need to share Josie. We are here to support you,

Hugs,

MG

JT, MG and Josie

My heart breaks for all of you today. I wish there was something I could do to ease your pain. I wish I could be with all of you to give you a great big hug.

I have no great words of wisdom. I think you all see that you are the most important one to deal with right now,and it seems that you are all going to be doing something for yourself, which is great.

Please know that I am here and I am praying for all of you and your loved ones and I hope the pain eases.

Many hugs.
Love,
Debbie

M.G.
Yep, these guys are slinging mud but
it doesn't surprise me. This has been
my greatest fear, I accept the fact
that my kids are drug addicts, and they
have their own choices to make. But I
do not accept the violence, this is what
makes my recovery so hard. I've decided
against the yard work, I think J.T. has
the right idea, a book or a movie sounds
good.
I love you guys!

((((((((((((((GROUP!))))))))))))))))

Josie, MG

What IS this?? Mother's Day? We had better find Anns,and Washbe and warn them!

And whoever is charge of the survival gear..can I have a new helmit? Mine's pretty beat up!

J.T., did you read "This Old Addict",
what a hoot. And you got me laughing
all over again. Mother's Day it is,
Ann-Washbe, be on alert.

Hugs,

Well, I was purposely in denial on Mother's Day and pretended that all was well.

I THANK GOD for all of you

MG