Awakening
 

Hello dear friends,

It has been awhile but here is an update on the on-goings in my relationship. Hell and back again, or so it has felt. She has sort of understood the severity of her "issue". She got extremely defensive when I used the word addiction, not alcoholic. On the 8th of this month she agreed on attending an AA meeting with me. Hmmmm I thought to myself, how is that going to happen me living in Europe, and she in the states. I advised her to go by herself a couple of times and I will attend an AA meeting here. I did and that was last Friday. Great experience and it truly gave me a better understanding. I have my first AL Anon meeting tomorrow Tuesday here in town.
She has yet to go but. She has not mentioned anything.

Yesterday as I was doing my dishes in the morning, I had awakening. I felt a relief, a surrendering of some kind that I am powerless over this disease, over her. My focus is on my recovery and inner healing.

I hold on to these words written and may you and your loved one find the courage to seek help.
It took me 14 years!!!

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude.
It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth.


Thank you for listening and for your support.

Bandepart,

Thank you for sharing your awakening.
What a wonderful post to read this morning.

To me, how long it took does not matter as long as it happens.
:)
After being married for years it was a miracle for me to surrender.
For me, feeling powerless became the goal instead of control.
Keep your focus on you, the good stuff has only begun.

Beth

Hi Bandepart - thanks for sharing. The "love is patient" passage was a reading at my wedding, and it hit me pretty hard to see it. Doing my best to be patient and kind and to rejoice in my own truth.

Sending you strength, hope, and hugs. :hug:

Yes, Bandepart--I think that this is why this reading is used at important ceremonies so much---it has truth that touches the heart.

I am wishing the very best for you.

dandylion

Thank you,
I have read many of your posts and you are strong and yes, may I say so, very patient. Keep posting and let us know of the events of life.

Lots of hugs,

The above reply was intended for Cecilia V. I am sorry if I missed typing your name in.