OT Facebook drama
OT Facebook drama
So my dad posts in my wall "I have an empty feeling as I have not seen you for a while now"
I think it has been 2 years since I last saw him. Or maybe 3.
He was the one who left decades ago and now that he is near the Polar Circle in Finland he "misses me".
I was inclined to post my feelings as a comment but I know FB is not a place for drama. I have my mom, and his wife there as well. Sheesh.
Just needed to vent in a safe place. I am tempted to reply "I have missed you for decades, you were the one who decided to leave".
But I know this comes from the place where I want revenge, I want him to hurt and I want him to feel abandoned as I have felt all my life.
Thanks for listening.
I think it has been 2 years since I last saw him. Or maybe 3.
He was the one who left decades ago and now that he is near the Polar Circle in Finland he "misses me".
I was inclined to post my feelings as a comment but I know FB is not a place for drama. I have my mom, and his wife there as well. Sheesh.
Just needed to vent in a safe place. I am tempted to reply "I have missed you for decades, you were the one who decided to leave".
But I know this comes from the place where I want revenge, I want him to hurt and I want him to feel abandoned as I have felt all my life.
Thanks for listening.
Thanks friends, that is a tool I learned from you.. it is OK to pause.. it is OK to reflect... it is OK to take time... and not to instantly react.
At least now I realize when I am coming from a place of pain and not from my heart. Progress not perfection........
At least now I realize when I am coming from a place of pain and not from my heart. Progress not perfection........
My ex therapist used to say that is common--parents taking their decisions then later in older age, finally regretting things and feeling guilt. Same goes for codies/alcoholics, anyone who knows they were not available for their children the way they needed.
I know I have to heal this. In fact I feel that healing is the reason I am around.
I know I have to heal this. In fact I feel that healing is the reason I am around.
Thank you Freedom, ((((hugs back))))
A long afternoon ahead of me but I know I can be with my feelings, no need for the judgmental mind to interfere with them.
Thanks, thanks for letting me share.
A long afternoon ahead of me but I know I can be with my feelings, no need for the judgmental mind to interfere with them.
Thanks, thanks for letting me share.
He answered "Thank you my dear. How are things going?"
What does that mean??
I deleted his entire post....
Unfortunately with some other priorities I haven't had $$ to spend in therapy yet, but I got a number already and hopefully next paycheck I can schedule my appointment.. I have looked forward to it for a long time.
What does that mean??
I deleted his entire post....
Unfortunately with some other priorities I haven't had $$ to spend in therapy yet, but I got a number already and hopefully next paycheck I can schedule my appointment.. I have looked forward to it for a long time.
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