OMG - He has GOT to be kidding
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OMG - He has GOT to be kidding
I thought anyone might get a kick out of this, who had read my post from yesterday.
Short story: My boyfriend is an addict, lying, acting ******, blaming, deflecting, the whole nine yards. He recently got xanax from his doctor, "for emergencies", he abused it (for the third time). I kicked him out at 3am, refusing to be anywhere near him if he is high.
I haven't spoken to him in 24 hours, I wake up to a text saying: "So... How long are we going to drag this out?"
I respond: "What is that supposed to mean?"
And then he lays this beauty of a text on me:
"I mean how long are you going to make me feel like ****? I received ten pills for emergencies ... of course I took them all immediately because that's what I do. What else is to be expected? I need to learn from these things"
I don't even know how to respond to this. omgggg.
Short story: My boyfriend is an addict, lying, acting ******, blaming, deflecting, the whole nine yards. He recently got xanax from his doctor, "for emergencies", he abused it (for the third time). I kicked him out at 3am, refusing to be anywhere near him if he is high.
I haven't spoken to him in 24 hours, I wake up to a text saying: "So... How long are we going to drag this out?"
I respond: "What is that supposed to mean?"
And then he lays this beauty of a text on me:
"I mean how long are you going to make me feel like ****? I received ten pills for emergencies ... of course I took them all immediately because that's what I do. What else is to be expected? I need to learn from these things"
I don't even know how to respond to this. omgggg.
"I mean how long are you going to make me feel like ****? I received ten pills for emergencies ... of course I took them all immediately because that's what I do. What else is to be expected? I need to learn from these things"
Not that everyone is clear on that how do you want to respond? I don't mean the text, that can be ignored, I mean your life. Where do you want to go from here?
Your friend,
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The one thing I do know for sure, is that I need to focus on myself, and worry about my happiness and my well being.
^^^^^^ THIS! ^^^^^^
He is an addict just doing what addicts do. Unless he admits he needs help and then gets that help, you can expect more of the same. I think you deserve better.
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So, his argument is that he IS doing everything he needs to be doing.
But how is okay to repeat the exact same mistake more than 2 times. more than 3 times even.
And its frustrating to me, because the last time his doctor prescribed him emergency xanax, and he abused it, he told me he called his doctor and told them to put a note on his file saying "do not prescribe xanax", or anything like that.
I don't even know if you can do that, but he said he did, and here he is with it again. So yet another lie.
Someone in one my previous threads said it doesnt sound like he is in recovery. And i'm starting to believe that. I almost feel like i'm holding him back, he's too worried about me and what i'm doing, and at the same time keeping me distracted so I don't notice hes using. Okay, now my head is spinning.
But how is okay to repeat the exact same mistake more than 2 times. more than 3 times even.
And i'm starting to believe that. I almost feel like i'm holding him back, he's too worried about me and what i'm doing, and at the same time keeping me distracted so I don't notice hes using.
Now, what about your recovery?
Edit: One thing you should know, all addicts lie. They lie to protect their addiction. I know I did. My addiction was my AW. I lied all the time to protect her. Pay attention to his actions not his words.
And to me his actions are speaking in a loud clear voice and it doesn't sound like the voice of recovery to me.
Your friend,
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I should clarify, I don't think I am holding back, me personally or anything I am directly doing, but I feel like he uses the "girlfriend role" in his life as an excuse, or a distraction. I'm really not sure, only he knows, and he may not even know right now.
I guess my main thing, is I keep expecting to see changes, and nothing has changed. Or progress at least.
This is hard, I think im gonna try to go to a meeting tomorrow.
I guess my main thing, is I keep expecting to see changes, and nothing has changed. Or progress at least.
This is hard, I think im gonna try to go to a meeting tomorrow.
Oh yeah, it's really hard. But I will tell you it is well worth it and it does get easier over time.
As for your expectations just remember expectations are premeditated resentments.
Your friend,
As for your expectations just remember expectations are premeditated resentments.
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He is not in recovery. He may be abstaining from alcohol, but he is still using with the Xanax. It is addictive.
You can't MAKE him feel like ****, that's just the A blaming you for his behavior. And he is clearly telling you not to expect anything different because "that's what I do". You're not responsible for his actions, he is. But what are you doing for you? I would not respond to that text, or any other text/call for that matter. He's let you know that he's going to continue to use, is that okay with you?
You can't MAKE him feel like ****, that's just the A blaming you for his behavior. And he is clearly telling you not to expect anything different because "that's what I do". You're not responsible for his actions, he is. But what are you doing for you? I would not respond to that text, or any other text/call for that matter. He's let you know that he's going to continue to use, is that okay with you?
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