Said

One of my Al-Anon friends (25 years in the program) says that when I slip and start thinking about AXBF it is because I am really working my program pretty hard and that I have been healing really fast so that sometimes it scares me and I need to go back to my obsessive/fantasy thinking as a sort of touchstone, even though it's not real or true. I wish I could just get rid of it once and for all because I still find myself flogging myself for something that wasn't my fault, and then I have to kind of start all over again. But my friend says I have been letting it go faster than I used to, and this will just continue until it stops happening much at all.