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Big hugs to you Ziggy, I know it hurts honey but you are doing so well & are an inspiration to me.
Respect.
If it's any consolation my ex husband verbally abused & threatened me after our break up for years & years. It's 6 years now & in the past year he has given me complements about my parenting skills & even wished me a happy birthday. Funny, just shows that eventually the blame does run out lol.
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If it's any consolation my ex husband verbally abused & threatened me after our break up for years & years. It's 6 years now & in the past year he has given me complements about my parenting skills & even wished me a happy birthday. Funny, just shows that eventually the blame does run out lol.
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Big hugs to you Ziggy, I know it hurts honey but you are doing so well & are an inspiration to me.
Respect.
If it's any consolation my ex husband verbally abused & threatened me after our break up for years & years. It's 6 years now & in the past year he has given me complements about my parenting skills & even wished me a happy birthday. Funny, just shows that eventually the blame does run out lol.
Respect.
If it's any consolation my ex husband verbally abused & threatened me after our break up for years & years. It's 6 years now & in the past year he has given me complements about my parenting skills & even wished me a happy birthday. Funny, just shows that eventually the blame does run out lol.
What I failed to see for so long was my choosing of reluctant, unhealthy partners; of course the results were disastrous!
My XA was/is one of the most emotionally unavailable people you could meet.
It helps to remind yourself that pain isn't love, it's just pain.
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Yes, we return to the pain source for validation -continuing the destructive cycle- proving to ourselves we are unloveable and unworthy of love. The self-fulfilling prophecy rears its ugly head.
What I failed to see for so long was my choosing of reluctant, unhealthy partners; of course the results were disastrous!
My XA was/is one of the most emotionally unavailable people you could meet.
It helps to remind yourself that pain isn't love, it's just pain.
What I failed to see for so long was my choosing of reluctant, unhealthy partners; of course the results were disastrous!
My XA was/is one of the most emotionally unavailable people you could meet.
It helps to remind yourself that pain isn't love, it's just pain.
To thine own self be true.
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lol - always the cynic, aren't you? I only wanted to try and make things civil, so if I ran into him I wouldn't have to worry about him screaming at me or doing something weird. I agree it wasn't so good for me though, and I shouldn't have bothered, which is why I posted here. There's no need to be rub sand in my eyes.
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Could be. Or it could be that the actual person and whether or not we feel we deserve more have nothing to do with it at all. I say this because I've done it so many times; held on for much too long. The way I see it is, the reason we hang on is because we haven't figured out the life lesson that person was meant to bring us. When I am finally able to let go, and then get a little distance, things become a little clearer and the lesson reveals itself. And the lesson is always about ME. It's never made any bit of difference who the messenger was.
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Yeah I think you're right... perhaps I wanted him to apologize too and for me just to feel okay about it all somehow. Instead I get put down again and told I deserve to be in pain after all the pain he put me through already. If I try to say anything to defend myself I am accused of being spiteful. I tell him he is projecting all of his issues on me and then he says the same thing in return. It's all a bunch of psychological mind games and childish and who the hell cares. Talking to him is like talking to an angry, resentful venemous snake. At least I'll have something to talk about in therapy... lol
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I agree, he just used to scoff at any thing I tried to do for self improvement, like therapy, or meditation, or reading an inspirational book. This was a guy who would dump all over a positive affirmation because he felt it was cliched or something. But I'm doing it because I want to.
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I admit it has been difficult for me to let go and somehow I wanted to "improve" upon things a bit between us, and only made everything worse in the process. so yeah guilty as charged I suppose.
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True...
...but my heart's in the right place and I definitely was not rubbing sand in your eyes. Rather, I was trying to do the opposite. Most of what I read here that I think are mistakes, big and small, I've probably made myself (including this one).
I've been reading your posts for a long time now and I respect you a great deal. That's also why I felt comfortable saying that to you.
Take care,
Cyranoak
I've been reading your posts for a long time now and I respect you a great deal. That's also why I felt comfortable saying that to you.
Take care,
Cyranoak
lol - always the cynic, aren't you? I only wanted to try and make things civil, so if I ran into him I wouldn't have to worry about him screaming at me or doing something weird. I agree it wasn't so good for me though, and I shouldn't have bothered, which is why I posted here. There's no need to be rub sand in my eyes.
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Yeah I think you're right... perhaps I wanted him to apologize too and for me just to feel okay about it all somehow. Instead I get put down again and told I deserve to be in pain after all the pain he put me through already. If I try to say anything to defend myself I am accused of being spiteful. I tell him he is projecting all of his issues on me and then he says the same thing in return. It's all a bunch of psychological mind games and childish and who the hell cares. Talking to him is like talking to an angry, resentful venemous snake. At least I'll have something to talk about in therapy... lol
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...but my heart's in the right place and I definitely was not rubbing sand in your eyes. Rather, I was trying to do the opposite. Most of what I read here that I think are mistakes, big and small, I've probably made myself (including this one).
I've been reading your posts for a long time now and I respect you a great deal. That's also why I felt comfortable saying that to you.
Take care,
Cyranoak
I've been reading your posts for a long time now and I respect you a great deal. That's also why I felt comfortable saying that to you.
Take care,
Cyranoak
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