Babslove

So AH home from the hospital 5 days now. Still sober and attending meetings. We took a hike yesterday to get out. My challenge now is I have trust issues and loads of hurt from the things he said to me while drunk. I am not in love with him. He has no job but is looking for one. I guess I am just tired of doing it all. I know he is trying and I am trying to support him in his sobriety since most of our friends are fed up with him. As his wife I am doing my duty but I am so tired of living like this. Feel like I am just waiting for the next crash,though he tells me he wants to be sober. The past is still very raw for me and I am not ready to trust again. Told him if he falls off the wagon again we are through.

Katiekate

Your feelings all sound pretty spot on to me.

It's a very painful place to be, kind of like getting to the end of the cliff and deciding whether to jump off or not.

Are you getting any support for yourself.

I have to tell you , I started feeling anxiety when I read your post, it brought up those feelings for me again, it was one of the most painful places to be.

Please keep posting, sending you a big hug.

Katie

Babslove

Thank you Katie. I am actually going to my first alanon meeting in Tuesday and have ash spot with a therapist on Wednesday.

WishingWell

GOOD. Both places are for healing, I would definitely do both.