Another way to look at this is not that you were disposable, but that he finally had to respect you because you made strong boundaries, even if he chose to continue not respecting hiimself.
Beautiful, MoG, and thank you. I think that's how i will choose to look at it! There's absolutely no way i couldv'e continued as we were -with his mean, escalating drinking, sleeping with other women (so he claimed), and no future ahead. Why would I stay in a situation like that?
Dammit, I'm worth more, as so many others here in toxic relationships.