Let Go - Finally
 

I sent the final divorce paperwork to my AH for signature. I have no doubt that he will sign and return them promptly. It's best that way - gives me less time to think.

I'm not sure how I feel right now. I think the best word would be NUMB. I don't want a divorce. I truly valued our marriage and the vows that we took. But like others have said, a marriage is a union between TWO people ... and 90% of the time I was alone. It didn't matter if we were separated or if he was sitting on the couch next to me - I was still alone.

I fought the fight, that's for sure. I held on as best I could. I held on to all of those "what if's" to the very end. But I need to do what’s best for me AND for my beautiful daughter ... and for him too! I can’t imagine my life without him, but I can’t imagine my future with him.

I read this on an SR sticky and it really struck me: It’s easier to mend a broken heart, than it is to piece together a shattered identity.

Addiction sucks. Period. No one wins. Let go, Let God.

What a battle you have fought.

Stay with us, we care.

Sending you lots of love and healing.

Katie

are you in a 12 step program like AL ANON...this can help you

The numbness might be protecting you from reality setting in.

But however you feel in the near future I wish you a better future and lots of love,

Best, -ziggy